Sunday, September 28, 2008

There's Love :)

たしかに - アンジェラ・アキ

Journey to Pavillion

Well, yesterday me, Sel, Nesia and Audrie go to Pavillion for shopping because Audrie said she never go there before. So instead of the usual Sunway Pyramid, we go to Pavillion. Well, the stuffs there are expensive so there's so many stuffs that's impossible for us to buy, but somehow I still manage to buy 3 stuff that I've already planned the night before: bag, skirt, cardigan with reasonable price :D

First we go to Trangs (if I'm not mistaken) and I they really got many nice stuffs, the price is still reasonable (unlike other big brand with sky-high price =_=) and they got really nice interior. I especially like the ceiling lamp that they use for base floor, it's really beautiful with morroccan touch. There we see some really nice headpiece, but since I'm not an accessory person I don't buy any of them. I try not buy items unless I'm sure to where/when/for what I'm gonna use them. I hate keeping stuffs =_=

After we finished our shopping, we go downstairs for dinner, but to our horror we pick the wrong time. It's buka puasa time! So the foodcourt crowded by almost entire population in KL. We walk here and there, back and forth for one and half hours to no avail. Finally for lack of choice we ended up in Nando's (where we must wait for 30+minutes before we got any seat!) for dinner. The foods in Nando's are nice, I like my burger so much and the peri chips is awesome! ;) The only bad things is the price is killing my purse T__T

And oh yea, there's anothing thing that killing me. My heels! As much as I love them, my new purple heels really torture my feet to the max yesterday. Actually it's my calcullation that fails me. I thought our shopping will only last for about 3 hours, while it ended up for 6 hours! Thanks to the full foodcourt =_= I think I won't wear my heels for the next 3 days. Resting my feet, I must.

Btw, since I love my bag so much, I think I must post it here xD

Friday, September 26, 2008

To Mask or To Unmask

Recently I heard a story from friend about the other friend who said that she's wearing mask everyday. Well, ofcourse you know what mask means here, she's pretending. Well, actually I'm not so sure about what she means by pretending here, but it makes me think about some other things.

I can't really blame people for pretending. If that's your choice, why other people need to bother? Do they prefer the 'real' you? Okay, for example there's A, a normal Jane with normal social life, surrounded by many friends. Her friends like her because she's such nice girl. What they don't know that actually she's a super cynical girl whose frank in giving opinion, only she always restrain that act. So she always try to be nice and proper, never say hurtful stuff to other people even though her cynical mind make some remarks about it. What's wrong with that? Do you prefer the cynical girl A, or the nice girl A?

Admit it, most people just want to hear what they want to hear. When you know your friend have figth with his/her girl/boyfriend, and actually you think that their girl/boyfriend is such an ass and not worth his/her affection, would you tell him/her straghtly to just forget about him/her blah blah that you must break up blah blah she/he's such an ass blah blah? Even though that's the truth, I bet 8 out of 10 people won't do that. Why? Because people just want to hear what they want to hear, they want comfort, not the truth. And if you tell the truth, everything will become awkward later. If they really break up, they will eventually blame you because you're the one who trigger it. If they do not break up, they'll think you're a bad influence for their relationship for 'trying' to separate them. Either way you'll still be the bad guy.

How can you blame people for pretending to be nice? Is it better to just show your dislikeness? Some people can control their dislikeness towards other people, so why blame them for controlling it? Not everyone blessed with nice personality like you. Some people just grew up in a f**ked-up environment that shaped their personality into a f**ked-up one too. Not everyone think that world is all about raibows, butterflies and many other pretty things.

So for some people, mask is their essential tools to survive. While other people who never need to wear mask call masked people as a sad hypocrite whose not worthy for many things that they can't enjoy without wearing mask. Is it wrong to pretend to be a nice person? Is it wrong to want to be liked?

Please don't say something like "well, sometime it's needed, but if ME, I'll only so that when it's needed"
Yes, yes, you're right and I can't say that's wrong for all people also do that.
But what I want to say here is "Can you blame people for wearing mask?"
So people... to mask, or to unmask?

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Missing

Suddenly I remembered something that I've ever discussed with Chen. Will distance brings us closer? At first I said yes, because I feel that after me and my sis separated we become closer. Before, we fought everyday, she can't stand me I can't stand her, she can't understand me I can't understand her, She want this I want that too. After she live in Jakarta, suddenly everything changed. Maybe we just matured, or maybe we just don't have anything left to fight? I dunno. Maybe it's just that now we're apart we can see something that we can't see before? Or if only I didn't yell at her at that time everything will just be okay? Maybe she's not that annoying at all? That actually the presence of another is important to us? Maybe. I don't really know what, but I know that me and my sis know how to make our sisterly relationship work now ;)

But how about friendship? I would say no. Maybe it's just for me, but at least that how it happened to me. Now I really have no any way to contact my best friend. I don't how she's doing, she never reply my sms or pick up my call, she never reply my comment in friendster, she never online in her MSN anymore, and the only time I've ever met her after I come here was one and half years ago, in beginning of January 2007. Her family moved to another city, so even though her uni got holiday, she won't come back to our hometown. I don't know what went wrong, maybe it's my fault, maybe I did a wrong thing, but really I don't know why. What's wrong?

Maybe there's something wrong, or actually there's nothing wrong. For now, I don't know what actually happened. But maybe one day I'll know. Maybe.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Because

I think my weight fluctuates worse than inflation. When I get back here 2 weeks ago I was 47.5kg; about 4 days ago I was 46kg; and now I'm 48.5kg. Time to buy new scale?

Btw, this week I spend my time playing lots and lots of point and click game. So far, all I can say that I'm quite frustrated playing some games in this genre and I hate black and white interface.

And actually I don't know what I want to say in this post, but I feel like posting something in my semi comatose blog. So bear with my super random post from now on.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Can't Sleep

Can't sleep, even though I feel so sleepy. I've counted more than 800 sheep, changed my sleeping position, eating 2 bar of chocolate, and I still can't sleep.

Random quiz/test:


Relational psychology tests
1. Imagine yourself on board a boat that is sinking. You manage to swim to a life boat and climb in. How many people do you see in the life boat with you?
--> Lots, the boat almost full.

2. You row to the shore and see a vast desert before you. You collect some belongings and supplies, and head out across the desert in search of salvation. How many pairs of shoes do you use?
--> only one, my dream shoes red anemone Christian Louboutin!

3. After much hard travel, you climb a rise of dunes and see a city in the distance. You also notice an oasis not too far away. Do you stop and rest at the oasis for as long as you want, only rest there for a minute, or keep heading towards the city?
--> rest for a while

4. Upon entering the city, you see a castle that intrigues you and decide to go to it. After passing the gates you find yourself walking down the length of a long corridor leading to the throne room. You enter and see a king and a queen sitting side by side on the throne. What do both the king and the queen look like? What characteristics do they seem to embody?
--> errr I imagine that they they looks like king and queen in cards. Maybe I see cards too much today...

5. You leave and go down a spiral stairway. It's dark and shadowy, with torches lit intermittently along the walls. As you're walking down a lady (if you are a man) or a knight (if you are woman) from the court passes you by. You only catch a glimpse of their face, and they remind you of someone you know. Who did you see?
--> OMG ...Heath Ledger?

6. The stairs lead you to a banquet room and you see this long table with a golden goblet in the middle of the table. Looking inside the goblet, how full of wine is it?
--> Almost full

Analysis:

1. How many true friends you perceive you have.

2. How many true loves you'll have before getting married.

3. Your personal work ethic.

4. What you imagine your ideal mate to be like. --> like king in cards?? with long white beard? O________O

5. This is the person you'll never get over for the rest of your life. --> WOW

6. How full it is represents how much of yourself you give in a relationship.

Ulla Zang Pictures

You are easy-going yet discreet. You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life and enjoy yourself. You need space, so you escape to beautiful hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer.

Reflection of Life

Imagine yourself in a forest or a jungle

1. What is the first animal you see?

--> err tiger

2. What is the second animal you see?

--> Lion

Imagine now there is a hut in front of you....

3. Do you :

--> Pass it

Now imagine yourself in the hut.

4. There are twenty candles in it, how many will you light up?

--> all

5. You see a table inside? Is it square or round?

--> round

6. How many chairs do you see around the table?

--> 3-4

7. There is a jug on the table. What material is the jug made of?

--> glass

8. How much water is inside the jug?

--> 3/4

You have stepped out of the hut and you start walking

9. You reach a beautiful waterfall. How fast is the waterfall? (from one to nine, one is the slowest and nine is the fastest)

--> rated 6-7

10. How many swans are there near the waterfall?

-->4-5

11. Now you have reached the river bank and your destination is just opposite. How do you cross over?

--> Find another way to cross.Use bridge la! +_+

Analysis

1. This question symbolizes the "reflection of your life". --> so? tiger? +_o

2. This question symbolizes the "character of your life partner". --> LION? LION???

3. a. Walking past means that you are not ready for relationships.

4. This question is about your generosity. The more you light up, the more generous you are.

5. A square table means that you are stubborn, a round table means that you are flexible.

6. This actually shows your hospitality. The more the better!

7. This refers to the material of your heart

8. This refers to the amount of love that you will give to your partner

9. The speed refers to your sex drive

10. The number of swans symbolizes the number of best friends you have.

11. This means that you think before you act.

Actually I took many other quiz, some are silly and funny, like which toilet cubicle will you choose? LOL. Actually our choice of toilet cubicle also can show our personality? Weird. Also a weird test based on period cycle! My face goes like this: d(OoO)b when I read the quiz.

Ugh.. almost 5 a.m ToT I wish I can sleep~! Think I'll fall asleep in DM3 later =_=

Friday, September 12, 2008

First Week in TOA

Dang... I can't believe that I'm in my 3rd year now!!!!!!! *faint* Okay, so dunno why I'm so lazy to start my new term, maybe because the day before I got sooo tired because I need to clean our entire place in Mentari. Me and sel throw water to the floor and play with water! xD It's fun, but super tiring man. And our neighbor really should stop throw their rubbish in front of our house, because I really think about installing a security camera to catch the culprit!

Okay okay back to topic. So the first day is Motion Graphic with Joanne Kok. It's nice to be teach by her again, and motion graphic seems fun. Even though I don't really understand about how I need to use Adobe EA yet. Btw, our first assignment is... typography in motion! Dang! again... Honestly I'm not so good in typography, so this assignment worries me.

The second day is my worst nightmare, Le Design Method 3! I'm quite traumatize by Design Method 2 so I'm worried about DM3. Hope I can do it better than 2 previous term D: Sweii become our lecturer again, with Sook Chiung as tutor.

Third day is 3D, where we meet Kenny again :D 3D is quite fun, so far mo troubles with it. Oh yea, our class combined with our seniors!!! Dang dang doeng now. I've already get used to our small class, so when 3D glass got lots of people (more than 10 is lots to me :P) I feel so weird about it. After 3D we got branding with Vincent. All I can say that he still the same as last term LOL.

Then finally the fourth day, meet again with Digital Media, only now we're in advanced class already :) Hazmer still teach us... for 3 weeks only. Actually I'm quite dissapointed that he won't teach us this term :( Why can't you wait for another term, Hazmer???? Class is fun, so far. Not yet touch the programming, that's why I can say that :P

Btw, yesterday we buka puasa with Wahyu and Hazmer. As usual, we eat in Sushi Zanmai. I really think we must find a new dinner location... We talked about many many nonsense there, from Hazmer's orang asli picture to greetings ala Malaysia (guess how? stick your tongue, raise both your thumb and wide open your eyes LOL). After that we go to starbucks to play a music game. Very fun and interesting game, and after that I'm thinking about buying a DS lite too. Hazmer can apply as sales promoter of nintendo now.