Private Territory

Moving On

2010-02-25T09:08:00.000+08:00

Move my personal blog to http://alt-tan.tumblr.com and my work blog to http://tanyus.tumblr.com
Please do visit :)

STFU

2010-02-08T07:31:00.000+08:00

Dear Bitch,
you need to learn to STFU :)
with love,

-tanyus

I Need Help

2010-01-21T13:25:00.001+08:00

Hi everybody, I need help from all of you. I'm trying to get an internship to Saatchi & Saatchi UK, but to get that I need to pass the first test. All I need to do is to make a facebook group and make sure have as many people as possible to join the group. So please help me, kindly join the group to help me. It also would be very nice if you guys would invite your other friends too! :)
Thank for reading this anyway ;)

Join the group here!

It's not

2010-01-17T02:38:00.001+08:00

Yes, of course roll your eyes.
Flick your hair.
Speak as if you're better than other people.
Honestly I can't really stand your holier-than-thou attitude.
Thank goodness I have enough self control.
Enjoy your disillusionment my dear, enjoy.

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010

2010-01-02T05:24:00.000+08:00

It's new year! Again... 2009 was a roller coaster ride for me. Starting and finishing my final project in TOA, falling in love and falling out of love, finishing college and starting a new chapter at university, losing and discovering my passion back, and many other things that considered big for someone little like me.

My biggest decision in 2009 probably was continuing my education. I actually already given up hope and think that I'll just directly work after college. Thanks to my family for trusting and supporting me, I decided to continue my studies instead. There's a lot of things happened in the progress that makes it wasn't easy, but thank God I fight my way through those and here I am in Birmingham. Honestly I almost given up hope and think maybe I shouldn't go, maybe I should just wait, or maybe I should just work. Now I think about it, I thank myself for being stubborn and my family for being naggy because I feel so grateful that I'm here now. So far, I never regret this big decision :)

There's a always a drawback of course. I'm far far far away from my family, friends and country now. I lost some job opportunities. I need to learn new stuff that's totally different that what I've been doing, and in final year nonetheless. I feel and suffered from the terrible weather here. And I let my summer go before it even started :) But I don't regret those. I'm glad I'm here, I'm a little bit homesick at first but I realised I shouldn't keep clinging to what has passed. I met new friends, go to different places, learn many things in Uni and life, get back my passion, and many other wonderful things that won't happen if I'm not here.

2009 has passed and I've made the biggest decision of my life then, but somehow I got the feeling that 2010 will have something bigger for me to decide. Let's hope I will make a good decision again this year :)

Instant Christmas Wishlist

2009-12-21T02:54:00.001+08:00

Wokay, gotta try to finish it in 5 min ;)
1. The Little Prince storybook
It's actually a children storybook but I really really want to read it xD

2. Memory Card for my Blackberry

3. Mini vacuum cleaner for my desk D:

4. Could never get enough shoessss xD

5. Super mighty umbrella

Revive!

2009-10-22T03:36:00.008+08:00

Well, sorry for neglecting this blog xD;;; I get so lazy and just tweet my way instead of blogging :P So if you have twitter, follow me!

Ummmm actually I start to blog again because Selvia asked me to post some pictures of vintage shops that I visited today. Firstly I wanted to say sorry because I didn't bring proper camera so I just take photos using my Blackberry and well... it's not pretty T.T

This morning I woke up late, at 11.30 while we all plan to meet in Bullring at 12.00 so I texted Chris to postpone it, but then Michelle texted me at 12.00 to tell me that she just woke up =.=;;; and even worse that at 12.30 Janna call me and said that Amir just woke up =.=;;; So we postponed the gathering until 1 pm. FAIL.

But just before we leave the phone in my flat rings and the postman delivered the boots that I ordered from eBay! So it's actually is a good thing that we're late, because if not I need to go to post office to take my stuff. SO this time, WIN ♥
Plus, my boots turns out to be much nicer than what I thought it would be! xD

After we all meet in Bullring, we headed to Malaysian Delight, a Malaysian restaurant in Chinatown. The food for certain food like prawn mee and char koew tiaw are surprisingly good! At 1.30 Steffy and her friend from Myanmar, Lala join us to spend the day :D

No photos in the restaurant because I forget to take any after I see the food since I was so hungry at the time. FAIL AGAIN.

After lunch we headed to Custard Factory, but on the way we stopped at COW, a vintage shop with super bright yellow paint @.@

Steffy and Janna shop some dresses and bags there, but me and Michelle come out with nothing T.T But we have realy fun time dressing ourselves with those vintage clothes though! xD

Our next destination is Custard Factory, and we really really having fun there!
First, we were greeted by this huge naked statue just in front of the outlet.
Chris said he'll become green in summer btw.

The we headed straight to the vintage shop called Melrose Vintage. They have really really nice collection. We all squeal qith delight when we go inside the shop LOL.

Sorry again for the crappy photo, it might not looks so nice in the photo, but the real shop is really really pretty.

I bought one bag and one skirt there! :D Can't wait to wear them ♥♥♥
I really really loveeee the bag, and it's super duper cheap! xD The skirt+bag= £22!
Actually there's a nice belt with butterfly buckle that I really like, but I'm not sure if I will ever wear it, so I just leave it there =/ maybe next time DDD:

So that's all for today xD;;; I'll try to update this blog as often as I can!

Bye Bye Blackbird

2009-09-02T03:20:00.000+08:00

Bye Bye Blackbird

Terrible Week

2009-08-16T00:38:00.004+08:00

I don't know how long have I abandoned this blog. I've been so emo lately, thanks to the super difficult visa requirement. Constant call from my sis and mom also not helping. Please stop implying that I didn't do anything to make this easier. I'm sorry if I sounded so annoyed when I pick up the calls, but yelling at me and blaming me for the late visa really makes me sick. It's not my fault if the Uni haven't give me the visa letter, I myself don't want to drag the progress.

Since last week I've tried many ways to settle the problems, but there's always something that prevent me from doing so. I run to 4 offices and 3 banks in Subang, PJ and KL for nothing. The only correct information that I got led me to Wangsa Maju, but I still have problems with my bank statement. I tried to send it as fast as I can and I still can't make it on time. I was so frustrated that I almost cry in the middle of the road. I almost lost hope and think that maybe I'm not supposed to get it, maybe I should just wait until next year. Luckily I'm more stubborn that I myself think. Now, one problem down but I still need to wait until Tuesday to see if the bank in my hometown could help to settle the problem.

Another thing about Uni, my mom tell me to just stay in the dorm since she's so worried about me. Actually at fist me and Chris plan to stay together outside the dorm in a flat, but because my mom still do not agree, I ended up in dorm. Let's hope I still can get a room in the dorm.

Tomorrow I'll go back to Wangsa Maju to take the translation of my certificate then take it to Indonesian embassy to get it legalized. Let's see if fate decided to screw my life again.

Radiohead - Bulletproof... I Wish I Was

The Horror of Packing/Moving/Whatever

2009-07-19T20:27:00.003+08:00

I JUST REALIZED I HAVE TONS OF JUNK IN MY ROOM. Shit.
Okay, so here's the story.
Tomorrow I gonna back to Indonesia for awhile to settle few things, and since I will graduate soon and move from here I plan to take half my stuff back first.
And the horror begin.
I have lots of junk/stuff/treasure/whatever and I don't know what I should do to them.
They consist of:
- Art materials from foundation years
- Tons of figure drawing works
- Tons of workbooks
- Bottles ~~with questionable substances~~ of perfumes, sprays, medicine, etc.
- Stack of color papers
- Boxes of magazines
- Bags (I really don't realized that I possessed more than 5 bags WTH)
- SHOES (I have more than 20 and don't know how I carry them all T____T)
- CDs (I think I need to sell them)
- Books
- Misc junk

Shit. I really really freaked out now. Follow my twitter if you don't believe me.

Currently

2009-07-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

Current Love:
1. Simon Pegg in Hot Fuzz and Ice Age 3.

2. Feeling Good by Muse. Probably the best cover ever, and usually I hate cover songs!

3. The Beatles' Abbey Road album and The Beatles (White Album).

4. Jigsaw Falling Into Place by Radiohead.

5. (Let Me) Dream On by Jamie Cullum and Marco Borsato.

Current Wait:
1. Public Enemies starring Johnny Depp and Christian Bale
2. Flash Forward, a sci-fi TV Series starring John Cho!
3. Muse and Jamie Cullum's newest album!
4. New York, I Love You starring Anton Yelchin <333
5. Sequel for Star Trek that only will happened in like... next two years? =.=
6. Other various movies, such as Sherlock Holmes, Up, The Wolfman, G.I.Joe, Paul, etc!

Sudden Realization

2009-07-01T01:56:00.001+08:00

Less and less people call me Yani now D:

Kafka On The Shore

2009-06-30T06:03:00.004+08:00

It's 6AM now, and I've just finished reading the book I borrowed from Chris, Kafka On The Shore by Haruki Murakami. After kinda finishing FPS, I feel that I have more time in my hands and the desire to read books come. This book is the second book by Haruki Murakami that I've read. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure why I actually love to read his book. Maybe it's the style of his writing, maybe it's the way he wove the story. I'm not sure, but everytime I read his book, I always feel that I need a quiet time by myself just to think. Sometimes the thing that come out from my quiet time is something that I actually thought before, but I never really paid attention about it. Something that I think I've known about it before, but not entirely understand what's the concept and meaning behind it. Weird, I know.

Kafka On The Shore makes me feel like that again, and I think I like this book better than Norwegian Wood. This book is really addictive, once I turn the page I just can't stop. I love the way Murakami wove the story, and the end is totally unexpected. It's still left me with some questions and some thoughts, and I'm afraid that I'm not ready to sleep yet. Not before I try to find out what's the answer.

Game theory

2009-06-24T20:03:00.004+08:00

LOL. Love this xD

Tanyus

2009-06-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

Presentation FAIL.
*sigh* T_T

FML

2009-06-21T22:20:00.006+08:00

Since 2 days ago I broke my bedroom's doorknob, but I'm too busy to change it so I just let it be. For safety I always put my bedroom key outside, but today when I collect my laundry, I FORGOT about it. Therefore I locked outside my room without key =.=

----

Ok, I actually planned to write long ass entry about today's incident, but after this blog writing activity inevitably interrupted I suddenly lost the mood D:
So I'll just sums up everything:
1. Wounded my thumb because of the door incident, and it HURTS SO MUCH.
2. The door ended up looking so ugly =.=

3. I love my bookmark design so much =D Will sell it for graduation campaign bazaar :)
4. Steven's reaction when I said I liked Anton Yelchin in Star Trek and Terminator Salvation
Translation:
"But Nyuuus Anton Yelchin is a little boy"
"how come?"
"HOW COME?"

LOLOLOLOL xD He's 20 ok, old enough for me xD

ok, that's pretty much sums up what I wanted to say D:
And song of the day, Starlight by Muse

The Beginning

2009-06-18T03:53:00.006+08:00

I was chatting with Wendy, complaining about my lack a motivation in doing my studies. Then he give me a very good advice:

Always remember the feeling when you started something.
Human being human, the greatest feeling is when they started something new.

Now I look at my college days with the feeling of a little girl who just discovered crayons :)

Thus the song of the day:

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
It's all right

I feel so grateful to have friends that always support and encourage me T___T
I'm sorry that lately I complained a lot you guys T____T
I'm sorry for being such a brat T____T
Thanks for your patience T_____T
Thanks for not-so-spoiling me T_____T
Thanks for always keep me sane T____T
Thanks for being my friends for the longest time T______T
I love you guys! :)

How To Be Dead

2009-06-13T21:38:00.005+08:00

Luv this song =]
The title sounds really suicidal, but somehow I think that the music and lyric is kinda cute ^^; Especially this part:

You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Lately I've been listening to a lot of Snow Patrol's song, and I liked what I hear so far ;)
Been so bored with my playlist so I totally change it xD;;
Tried some oldies songs from Nat King Cole, Leonard Cohen and Frank Sinatra. I think many of old songs have really funny or cute lyrics XD

How To Be Dead - Snow Patrol
Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

Sometimes

2009-06-11T12:24:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just can't find the right person to talk to.

Cool Guys Don't Look At Explosions

2009-06-06T01:28:00.003+08:00

This is funny video from MTV Movie Awards 2009 by Andy Samberg, Will Ferrel, and JJ Abrams (keyboard solo, woots! XD) teaming up together to sing about those movie guys who act super cool while pretending to not look at the explosion behind them XD

LOL

2009-06-02T05:17:00.006+08:00

I think that it's so funny that I need to post it here XD
Click to full view it!

Taken from XKCD.com

Moral of the story: Don't mess with Twilight's author, or the rabid fangirl of Twilight will take over your world. Heck, they even already started to take over the world =_=

Btw, random fav song :P

Song For You (Album Version) - Michael Bublé (Featuring Chris Botti)

Relieved

2009-06-01T19:08:00.003+08:00

My blog is like... in semi-coma state, I know. I really have no mood to do anything lately. FPS stressed me so much since I left behind my schedule for too long. The reason is I don't even have faith in my concept. I don't know why, but I keep seeing flaws in it and that's not the kind of flaws that I just can brush it off. So I change my concept and I FEEL GOOD about it. Finally something I have faith in. Somehow I just believe that this idea might work and I have clear picture in my mind on how I want to do it. Even though it's kind of rush and I have little working time, I like it and I don't feel tortured in doing it.

I've just got back from college, having some critic session with Sweii and some chat with her about further study. Thanks to her now I got clearer info about it. I think I'm really the person who needs to ask and talk about something before I can really sure about it. I don't know why, after that critic session and chat I feel sooooo soooo good. Like some weight in my chest just gone away~ I feel good LOL XD

To sum this post, I just wanted to say that I'm so happy today~! X)

Adorableness and Hecticness

2009-05-24T22:12:00.014+08:00

See my previous blog entry? The one I gush about how hot is Zachary Quinto? FORGET THAT. Because now I'm in looooveeeeee with Anton Yelchin. RIGHT, Pavel Chekov from Star Trek. The adorable russian navigator
Ok, before I continue writing this, please bear in mind, I'm in my SUPER FANGIRL mode.
I thought that I've already passed the era where I adore super cute uke-type guy. But then I see this:
Because if that picture I act like this (but in different terms of madness) :

IS THAT THE SAME BOY THAT I SAW IN STAR TREK??? SINCE WHEN HE BECOME THAT GOOD LOOKING? asdWEFWRFWFCwAESXQXDX1~!@~@E#W@#$@$

It also not helping that I've found this video of him being adorable and vulnerable from ontd_startrek (I recommend this community if you guys want to find crazy fangirls make fun of star trek actors LOL)

SHITE. I'm sold T.T He's just so freaking adorable. It's also not helping that he's being all smart and funny T.T I think this is the first time I like an actor whose around my age LOL. Usually guys that I like are just too old~! So I got excuse to like him, he's around my age~! I'm not guilty~! Now I just can't wait for his next movie, Terminator Salvation where he played teenager Kyle Reese.

Oh, well~ XD Ok, time to turn off my super fangirl mode. Let's talk about college life now T.T
This term we continue doing our FPS, graduation campaign, and Industry practice. Somehow for graduation campaign I become treasurer. Actually almost all MM students become the board member. Chen as the president, Wahyu as Art director, Diana as PR, Chris as Marketing assistant, Sel and representatives of MM. So this term we're as busy as ant workers T.T I hope we all can pass this term and graduate together =)

Ok, gtg now. Having meeting with classmates for graduation campaign idea~

BTW...

2009-05-10T21:47:00.003+08:00

Am I the last person to notice that Zachary Quinto is actually VERY HOT?
And Sel, give up, HE'S MINE! Muhahahahaha :P

What Happened

2009-05-09T13:19:00.006+08:00

OK, I think I kind of neglecting this blog, again :P
That's because I was on holiday, so I go back to Indonesia and take my sweet time to do everything that I can't do before holiday. I've read 3 fantastic books, 1 manga, watch 3 movies, and babysitting (which ended up as BIG FAIL) my nephew.

1. Let me introduce you to my fat baby nephew, Reego Pierson Chen :D
I was helping my sister to babysit him for a while, but I just cannot tahan to carry too long since he's too heavy for my arms T____T But I keep practicing and now I swear you can see muscle if I bend my arms. He's so fat that he can't fit clothes for his age (2-3 months), he need to wear clothes for 9-12 months baby. His face is soooo chubby that I feel like biting them if only my sis patrolling around :P He like when people talk to him and making a face as in he understand what we said XD The problem is... He didn't like it when I carry him T_T He'll cry and I need to call my sister to make peace with him. So everytime I babysit him, I always ended up making him cry T___T Why you hate your aunty so much???? T____T *sniff*

2. Sang Pemimpi (The Dreamer)
The second book of the tetralogy of Laskar Pelagi. I think this book is better than the first one. It really moves me, I cried in some parts T_______T To me this book is like a wake up call for me, reminds me of something I totally forgot: Dreaming. Arai reminds Ikal that sometimes, being a realist can tricked you into being a pessimist. Arai, the "simpai keramat" who reminds us to dream.

For people like us, all we have is dream. Without it... we're dead.

I really can't wait to read the third book!
*simpai keramat is Melayu Belitong's name for people who is the only survivor in the family, means all of the family he has are dead, only him left.

3. Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows
Ok, I know it's super late for me to read this book, one of the reason why is because I still can't accept the truth that Dumbledore is dead :( But this time I make myself to read the book, and I'm not dissapointed. The last book of Harry Potter is one of the best in the series. I love the plot twist, the back story, and the ending. Because of this book I also see Severus Snape in different light. I think I'm in love with him now~! I'm so sad that he's dead T___T Before I read this book I already suspect that Snape actually love Lily, but I never expect that he loooooveee her that much. When I read the part where Harry see Snape's memory from the pensieve, I cried and hug the book T_____T One of the reason why at the end Voldemort fails also because he never expect that Lily is Snape's eternal love. I also kind of pity him and sooooo geram with Dumbledore because after all Snape did, by the end he just used him T___T Dumbledore is my favorite character in Harry Potter, but I feel soooooooooooo mad when I know that. *sniff*

4. Kaze Hikaru vol.24
One of my favorite manga, the plot is quite cliche, about a girl that disguise herself as a boy to join Shinsengumi. But I looooooooooooooooove it :P I think I like how Taeko Watanabe make the characterization. As usual, I never liked the main character :P But I loveeeeee Hijikata and Saito xD This manga usually released every 3 months in Indonesia T___T so slow, but that's because the manga still ongoing, the latest one is vol 25 D:

5. X-Men Origins: Wolverine
This movie really really dissapoint me. Even after I guessed that it would be sucks and lowered my expectation, I still thinkthat it really sucks. The story is terribly developed, the effects are bad, and the most terrible crime that they did was to SCREWED my favorite character, Deadpool. WTH man, they turned Deadpool into mouthless, teleported, wolverine-style katana weilder? At first I'm still okay when they make Wade Wilson (Deadpool's real name) as a maskless hunk. But then they turned him into some unfunny mindless android? This movie sucks, end of story. Even naked Hugh Jackman can't save it.

6. Laskar Pelangi
The movie that I've been waiting for. The book is fantastic, sadly (but not surplisingly) the movie is not as good as the book. I think there's no climax and solution in this movie, since they cut lots of parts. Many characters also not developed, they only focused on Ikal, Lintang and Mahar in this movie. Even though the story disspaoints me, I think it has beautiful pictures. Many great shots, and I think this movie is something different than teeny-bloopers romance movie that Indonesia always produced.

7. Star Trek
Just watched it yesterday, and it really impressed me. I have no expectation whatsoever for this movie, I really don't expect anything and this movie wins my heart. The most satisfying movie that I watched this year, so far. I think this movie is like this year's Iron Man. A movie that surprisingly I liked, and makes me feels satisfied after I watched it. It's has the sad elements, but there's also lots of fun. It's fast moving too, which I really like. Plus, Spock is really sexy. Can't get enough if his voice :P A must watch movie.

Ok, that's it! Actually I still have one more book, but I haven't finished reading it, I didn't inclue it here. So, how's your holiday? :D

Laskar Pelangi

2009-04-15T23:56:00.002+08:00

Laskar pelangi is one of the best Indonesian novel that I've ever read and last September 2008 Indonesian filmmakers made the movie. This holiday I'll surely will buy the CD/DVD since many people commented that it's such a good movie. But for now, I must satisfied with the trailer only D:

Btw, this movie also have beautiful soundtrack from Nidji :)

Anybody interested? XD

So It's Almost Holiday...

2009-04-13T23:51:00.002+08:00

Yep! It's almost holiday~! After we pass this week then there's nothing can stop me from hibernating~! Oh wait, there's FPS =_=

Speaking of FPS, just now Sweii show us I Love Dogs project that been done by one of our senior. I'm so interested with the motion tracking and audio sensor (I don't know what the correct name of the thing is, so Ah Bonk, if you read this please tell me~!) that he did for the project. I'm thinking about implementing those things to my FPS too, but then when I tried the motion tracking script, I suddenly become blind X_X There's a looooooooottttt of things that I've never know/learn before. So I'm thinking about buying the AS3 cook book when I go back to Indonesia since I'm so broke right now T___T

Somehow this term my interest in AS3 increased greatly. I wanna know more about it, how to implement it with PHP, how to do interactive installation, etc. But to be honest, I don't want people know me as a programmer who can design. I prefer to be known as a designer who can program. Well, it's still a long way for me to learn AS3 anyway. Wish me luck~! =D

Power Rangers Star Wars James Bond Remix

2009-04-06T21:26:00.004+08:00

Ok, actually it's more than the title mentioned. Apart from my emo-ness, we MM068-1 gather in MSN and hilarity ensues. Ahem... so everybody! MM068-1 presents... CHEAPO MOVIE!

Cast:
Wong Chen Li as Power Ranger, Anakin Skywalker Wong/Luke Skywalker, Keanu Reeves, Jayus Bond, Rorschach
Tengku Diana Karanina as Kononnya Obi Wan, Jajabinks, Nudist Yoda, Shitshifter
Tanyus Indrayani as Mother, Father, DARTH VADER (not DARTH vADER), Agent Smith, Tesper Lynd

Director+special appearance as Princess Leia:
Wahyu Nugraha Amri

GOGO POWER RANGERS!!!
??..0.o??...
*SND EFFECTS* PUISSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHH~! fIUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
AQ LAH POWER RANGER YANG SEBENAR BENARNYA!
MARILAH MELAWANI AQ!!!
*POSE*
*CLICK CLICK* AMBIK GAMBAR AQ YANG PENUH GAYA SEKALI
o.0?...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_W0H1V7e7g see??? zombies are dancing!!!
and no chen, you're not the real power rangers
because....
actually..
I'M YOUR MOTHER!!!!

o.O! NO! I AM THE TRUE JEDI! YOU ARE NOT MY FATHERRRRRRRRRRRR
she said mother not father..0.o?...
i DON'T LIKE YOU RAPPING WAHYU! DON'T THINK YOU ARE AKON~!
hah??...what??..i dont get it0.o?...
akon sucks...
Hi, my name is ... chop...got nice song. I wanna dance d
I'M DARTH VADER AND YOU'RE SKYWALKER!!! MY SON!!!
hmm..i tink u mistaken me with somebody else la...im not ur son~
HELLO! YOU ARE DARTH VADER...I AM ANAKIN SKYWALKER WONG..NOT ANAKIN SKYWALKER BIN VADER OK?
HE IS YOUR DAUGHTER!!!! *menuding jari ke arah wahyury*
...
YOURE LEIA???? OH LEIA!!!! MY DAUGHTER!!!!
OIH vader! Buta ker??
Namanya wahyury!
and why vader so gay suddenly!
who whoo??0.o???...
wow..ur rapping againwahyury.... Hoo Hoo~!
you! You!

omg..i just read afew sentences and im laughing already
hahaa...im not so into rap music ok...their musics are sucks
shadap you woman!
you're my daughter!
OHH LEIAAAAAAAAA
LUKEEEEEEEEEE
??? @.@
ehh aunty u mabuk isit
OBI WAN! don't you try to separate me (vader) from my son and daughter!
DARTH vADER...ur an aunty!!!???
I AM NOT YOUR SON!
obi wan??? O.o
I'm not DARTH vADER!
Master!
I'M DARTH VADER!
no, u are DARTH vADER
im not obi wan ok! me jajabinks
don't you try to trick me!
You monster!! *menuding jari ke arah jajabinks*
even thought you use jajabinks as disguise, I'm know inside you're still obi wan!
you very jahat...monsterists
**zips out of jajabink costume** u are wrong my child...yoda i am..
DARTH vADER, please don't make a sccene!
SEE WHAT YOU DID!!
YOU MADE YODA STRIPS!
??0.o
I KNOW IT!
I KNEW IT!
I KNOW THAT YODA IS A NUDIST!
DARTHvADER IS A PERVERT!
pervest is vader!
*pervert
yoda is nudist!
DARTH vADER IS PERVERT!
DARTH VADER!
I SHALL NOT TOLERATE THIS ANYMORE!
RACIST IS LEIA
YES? DID YOU CALL FOR ME DARTH vADER?
....
I'M DARTH VADER!
nudist is yoda!
IMPOSTER!
YOU IMPOSTER!
SAMMO A PERVERT IMPOSTER!
I'M THE REAL ONE!
KISS MY ASS YOU WILL
YOU'RE MY SON!
WHO?
SEE!@
YOU'RE YODA!
I KNEW IT!
YOUR ASS HAS A BIRTHMARK
IT SAYS....
R2D2!
YOU ARE A ROBOT!
0.0
WHY DO YOU ACT AS R2DR "WHY"
**eh wahyu whats tht other robot called??**
C3PO
*commercial break?*
cepo???
cheapo
ahhaha
AHAHAHAHAH
ha?..u talking to me?..
LOLOLOLOL
HAHAHAHA
hahahhaa
omg...
AHAHHAHAA
sakit perut maaan...
this is so Toopid!
totally break the flow man
hahhaa..but its correct rite
temang toopid
tat twy to
to toopid
bodooooo
tahyu tah tay theapo

I KNEW IT!
DEE IS A SPY!
hahaha u knew everythinglahh ok xD
*shucks..mission impossible scenes*
why nobody notices that she's keep changing form?
She's SHIT!
because im a shapeshifter
SHIT!
rom different holes diferent shape!
u r SHITSHIFTER
yes, short form of shapeshifter is, shit. -.-'
this is dangerous
I shall report to..... M
whos M?
My name is Bond... Jayus Bond
*winks*
jayus??.. xD
**pew pew...pew pew**
*wahyury pengsan*
apa inii??...
is that ur gun's sound?
. .. yeah
doesn't sound scary lae
hahaa
i follow jayus bond mah
Follow Me
*follow me songs*
Gunalah, shampoo Follow Me!
....and I'M!!! TESPER LYND!
You are Tempe
...I'm a tempe spy!
tempe cepat dimasak, sedap dimakan
itu maggi mee you terrible ello
I'm must kill jayus bond to get my TEMPE FACTORY back!

Kill me.... kill the world
bah! I will not save the world
My name is...Keanu Reeves
eee....nEo~! @.@
neo??
NEO is my middle name
I'm... agent SMITH'
ne-yo
my real name is.... NE-O
ne-yo is her real name
Nescafe-O is the long name
no... save me save the world
*so sick of love song, so sick~*
HERO!

Here I am...m name is MARITEZ
is the kamehra ooon
I think batman is gayyy

I heard a joke once
*face ink changed shape*
A man went to the doctor...
*ace change ink again*

I forgot my line director
=.="...CUT~!
Boss...sorry laaa
this Random Movie a bit hard laaaa
so many diferent movie lines
FOCUS FOCUSS
OMG...u made me choke the chocolate milk almost went up my nose~!!
AHAHAHA
u want to waste my tape isit?!...
HAHAHAH..kasian dee xD
alamak bos...masking tape only whaat
dats why
HAHHAHAHA
hehehee...sstt..dot make it sounded so cheap lahh dee... xp
this is cheap wat!
onli 3 actors!!
4 crews!
and u have to make special appearance
CHEAPO wat!
no~!im the only one crew
special appearance as what?

CHEAPO MOVIE! coming out in december!

Things I've Learned Lately

2009-04-05T02:21:00.004+08:00

I slowly lost my passion in design. When I look back at my old sketch book and my new one, I can feel how I slowly lost it. Design is not something I really enjoy anymore. Design is something that I must do, just to finish and done with it. It's just like a routine. I feel so sad when I realized it, because designing used to be my dream job, it used to be something that I really enjoy and love. Now, I can't even have any confidence in it. I started asking myself if it's really what I want. I'm so jealous of my friends who really know what they want to do. I don't know. I really don't know which direction I'm going. I just feel that I don't mind doing the work, but that's not my passion. Not something that I really really love.

After I attend KL Design Week, it feels even more clearer. I feel quite inspired, but I also feel extremely jealous with the designers that really in love with what they do. I want to get back my passion. That's the reason why I decided to continue my study. I think if I directly work after I graduated, I'll just ended up as a machine without any interest in my work. I think I need more time to learn and gain back my passion. Pray for me~!

Nostalgic

2009-04-03T02:54:00.003+08:00

Ah~! Actually I plan to blog about KLDW tonight until I stumbled upon this very old music video (freaking 1999!) of Indonesian band Sheila on 7, Kita. Suddenly I feel so nostalgic and miss Indonesia T_T This song reminds me of the good old days with my friends :'(

Kita
by Sheila on 7

Disaat kita bersama
Diwaktu kita tertawa menangis merenung oleh cinta
Kucoba hapuskan rasa
rasa dimana kau melayang jauh dari jiwaku juga mimpiku

Biarlah biarlah hariku dan harimu
Terbelenggu satu lewat ucapan manismu

Reff:

Dan kau bisikkan kata cinta
Kau t'lah percikkan rasa sayang
Pastikan kita seirama
Walau terikat rasa hina

Sekilas kau tampak layu
Jika kau rindukan gelak tawa yg warnai lembar jalan
Kita reguk dan teguklah mimpiku dan mimpimu
Terbelenggu satu lewat ucapan janjimu

Ok, now I think you can call me emo kid =.=

I Need Phood

2009-03-22T04:30:00.002+08:00

With Taureans, a person can get away with more than most, but once they’re pushed past a certain point, they blow up, and these expressions of rage can be frightening. Taurus people are particularly likely to lose their tempers when their blood sugar is low, so they should not tackle important, sensitive issues with partners, friends, or family on an empty stomach.

from http://astrological-sun-signs.suite101.com/article.cfm/taurus_love_and_friendship

LOL... Apparently I need to eat to keep my mind sane.

Orange Colored Sky

2009-03-15T01:46:00.002+08:00

I was walking along, minding my business,
When out of an orange-colored sky,
Flash! Bam! Alakazam!
Wonderful you came by.

I was humming a tune, drinking in sunshine,
When out of that orange-colored view
Flash! Bam! Alakazam!
I got a look at you.

One look and I yelled "Timber"
"Watch out for flying glass"
Cause the ceiling fell in and the bottom fell out,
I went into a spin and I started to shout,
"I've been hit, This is it, This is it!"

I was walking along, minding my business,
When love came and hit me in the eye,
Flash! Bam! Alakazam!
Out of an orange-colored sky.

One look and I yelled "Timber"
"Watch out for flying glass"
Cause the ceiling fell in and the bottom fell out,
I went into a spin and I started to shout,
"I've been hit, this is it, this is it!"

I was walking along, minding my business,
When love came and hit me in the eye
Flash! Bam! Alakazam!
Out of an orange-colored, purple-striped, pretty green polka-dot sky
Flash! Bam! Alakazam! and goodbye

I Watched The Watchmen

2009-03-13T02:40:00.006+08:00

Finally I watched The Watchmen. After I post the previous entry, I tell myself to stop whining and move my lazy bum to pyramid. So, the movie obviously would never be as good as the graphic novel, but I think this movie is not a bad adaptation. It loses some details, just like other comic/book inspired movie always have, but it maintain the main parts. Plus, it has nice opening credits.

The movie is complicated, like the graphic novels, and I think people who didn't read the graphic novel wouldn't like the movie. I don't think people could enjoy watching this movie because the story is quite complicated, it's not a light story that you can understand in one shot. There's a lot of important monologue in graphic novels that makes us understand the motives of each characters, on how they become who they are then. In movie they try to make it as detail as graphic novel but obviously they can't and it makes some parts of the story lack of depth. I won't blame people for not understanding what happened in the movie since there's just tooooo many sub stories here and there without in depth explanation like in graphic novel.

On the actors, I must salute the actor who played Rorschach. It's like he's born to be him. I think his interpretation of Rorschach is perfect. Really love the way he talk and move and everything. Even without the mask he can be so awesome. Not to mention he always got very interesting monologue. Love him.

I also quite like Dr.Manhattan there, and actually I don't expect him to have such a soft voice since I always imagine him with colder voice tone. The minus point is just that sometimes he sounds more to confuse than all knowing. About the actor who played Veidt, I just think his acting is awkward. Don't like. I think he just can't pull Ozymandias. The actor who played The Comedian also very very awesome, he's so him. Silk specter also somehow better than I thought, while Night Owl... his costume is too Batman-ish here to me, but his acting is not bad.

Overall to me it's a good graphic novel adaptation, I recommend people to read the graphic novel before watch the movie or maybe you'll be quite clueless and don't understand why the characters become like that.

Favorite quote:

Heard a joke once.
Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed.
Says life seems harsh and cruel.
Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lieas ahead is vague and uncertain.
Doctor says, "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pogliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up.
Man burst into tears, "But doctor... I am Pogliacci"
Good joke. Everybody laugh. Roll on snare drums. Curtains.
-Rorschach

To me the quote is so sad. Who'll cheer up the "clowns" when they're sad?

It's Not Because He's Naked

2009-03-12T09:21:00.002+08:00

I want to watch The Watchmen. And not because Dr.Manhattan got into some nekkid action there =.=;;;

Me: I want to watch The Watchmen
Steven: Only cool in special effects and got naked Dr.Manhattan there
Me: I still want to watch
Steven: Just for the naked Dr.Manhattan?
Me: =.=;;;;

It's not!.... the main reason :P
I want to see Rorschach! I think that's the main reason why I so wanted to watch this movie.
Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh but with all the schedule we have this term I just can't find the time to watch this movie T.T I don't mind watching this movie alone, as long as I can watch it!!!! =.=

Btw, other bad news about me. I lost both my external hard disk and pendrive. Both are because of my clumsiness. I don't know why I'm so clumsy lately. Whatever.

Wrong

2009-03-04T03:00:00.000+08:00

Nope, I don't care. In fact, I only care about myself.

Tan is Emo

2009-02-24T16:17:00.001+08:00

I think I listen to Radiohead's High & Dry and Fake Plastic Trees too much T_T

Dream Dream Dream

2009-02-24T00:16:00.003+08:00

I was having very interesting conversation with Steven just now. As we chatted, we realized that we actually have very similar dream that disturbed us, only we have different people and settings inside our dream. Psychologist said that dream is our inner desire, maybe there's something we want to do/ask in real life but we hold ourself? I kind of don't want to admit it, but then I realize better if I just accept it and be done with it. Now I just don't know where I should start.

Btw, song of the day: Mind Trick - Jamie Cullum

Oh, I Feel So Drunk

2009-02-20T04:10:00.002+08:00

These few days I don't get any chance to sleep properly. So now I feel like a drunkard. You know, your body feels like jelly, your head feels like swimming, and the world around you feel so surreal. I've been trying to rouse my motivation by reading lots of design blogs and books. I think it works, but I still need more time since with schedule like now I can't really think properly. Like now. Do you guys even understand what I said? @_@ Please bear with me, it's 4.18 am now.

As much as I like the subject for this term, I think the group discussion is a bit too much. It also super frustrating to discuss though MSN because of he choice of word that we use, so we must meet at college. We have lot's of different opinions, but fortunately we get through that already. Although one of my group in one certain subject that I have no interest in is a bit weird. Pink and white for a name like Sinful Indulgence? WTH. Luckily they change it though. Oh yea, a note for myself, try to speak more gently in discussion Tan! Somehow I feel sometimes some people feel offended when I disagree with their opinion. Must be more subtle. Stupid Tan.

Yesterday (oh hey, it's already Friday! so actually it's the day before yesterday!) we have BBQ with Kenny and Hong in Dee's house. Fantastic food, but a bit too much lamb. Love the salad. Chris is a great piano player. Kenny coming to Dee's house riding bike. WOW. And Mrs.Kok is really pretty. We also forget to eat our watermelon. Plan to leave it in front of MM Dept door and put message "To: Kenny!". Somehow I even think to put it inside a baby crib.

WTH I'm talking about. Sorry, just like the title, I feel so drunk.

So Unmotivated

2009-02-14T22:27:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's wrong with me, but seems like every term 2 I will lose my motivation in doing my assignment. Seriously, when I tell myself to do my assignment, the first word that come to me is "UGH!". I don't know what happened, I really really feels sooooooo unmotivated and moody. I also feel that everything is boring. One side of me feel so worried because I slack so much this term, while the other one don't care about anything because it feels like a torture to start working on my assignment. Somebody help me!!!!!!

Character Design Fail

2009-02-12T23:35:00.003+08:00

After I print screen this, I close my PS and forget to save it. @$#%#^!@#$@#$@!!!

Not Amused

2009-02-10T04:06:00.003+08:00

Further Study?

2009-02-08T11:04:00.007+08:00

When I go back to my hometown for CNY, my mom suddenly ask me if I want to further my study. To be honest, I really really want to. The only thing that makes me hesitate is the money my parents need to spend for me if I continue my study. Among all my siblings, my parents spend the most money on my education. Both of my sisters get their degree in Indonesia, which is much cheaper that my study here. Plus, both of them finished sooner then other students so they don't burden my parents too much. I feel guilty for making my parents spend so much money for me. My mom ask me to think about it and asks people around me if I need to further my study. I've asked and most people said ofcourse it'll be good, even the experience alone is worthed, and if I can, why not?

I've just called my mom to tell her about it and she said that she'll support me. She ask me to where I want continue my study which I can't decide yet. For the past 3 days I've been researching about where to studies, etc. At first I'm interested in Birmingham City University because some people that I know wanted to continue their study there. But after I've done some research, now I'm more interested in Northrumbia University and University of Sunderland because they have Interactive and Multimedia design courses which I'm interested in. Actually my mom asked me (if possible) to go to place where I've got friend with me, so she won't be too worried about me being so far from my family. But I think eventually I'll manage though. I'm still undecided, but I hope I will make a good decision.

Btw, it's a bit random and out of topic but I want to post this funny comic xD

Comic from XKCD

Random Lovelies

2009-02-04T21:57:00.008+08:00

1. Journey in Miami Sand
I rareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeely fall in love with bags and this simple white bag make me fall in love at first sight. I generally hate leather bags (exceptions for some really pretty ones) and love cotton, cloth, and wool bags so this bag is perfect. The only problem is the color, it's white! And somebody as chor lor as me will make it dirty in no time =.=!

2. D&Y "Softer Than Cashmere?" pink checkered scarf
Ohh another love at first sight. The moment I saw this scarf I feel like I can feel the soft texture of it lol :P I love the colors, and I can't stand cold so it's perfect for me. I plan to buy this, so stay tune!

3. Nintendo DSi
I want it I want it I want it I want it I want it I want it I want it I want it I want it! T_T I asked my parents if I can buy this, but they said that I'm too old to play games =.=! Actually I can buy this with my ang pow money, but I feel guilty if I buy something expensive without my parents' permission :( Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu T_______T Guess I must wait until I can earn my own money T______T The problem is I can't wait!!! T_________T

About Packing

2009-01-23T00:03:00.006+08:00

Maybe it's just me but...
Don't you think the hardest part of packing is choosing which shoes you want to take? I ended up bringing 3 pairs of shoes for 1 week CNY holiday in Indonesia from the original plan to take 6 pairs.
Guess which shoes that I take? ;)

Watchmen Widget

2009-01-20T00:48:00.001+08:00

I don't Want To Explain

2009-01-19T11:36:00.002+08:00

"Never explain--your friends do not need it, and your enemies will not believe you anyway."

--Elbert Hubbard

I don't want to explain myself to you. You can either believe me or not. At least I do something about it.

It Aint Necessarily So - Jamie Cullum

Rude Person and First Week TOA

2009-01-14T16:41:00.003+08:00

I was sleeping and dunno how in my dreams there's a very rude guy that makes me so angry until I really shout "EXCUSE ME!!! MIND YOUR MANNERS!" in reality until I woke up =.=!
I hate rude person. I really can't stand somebody who treat other people like shit. Grrr!

Btw, we started new term in TOA since 5 January. Finally I choose Advanced Web Design and Game Art and Planning for my elective subject. Actually I regret this decision after Sweii asked me if I've been given chance what skill I want to take. I answer Motion Graphic and Flash. Stupid me and my indecisive brain :(. But I think advanced web design will also give me lot's of new experience.

Btw, to my first week summary in TOA for this term. Firstly I can't believe now I'm in my 3rd year 2nd term. Wow, time sure move fast. In monday we got Final Project Studio with Sweii. As the name suggested, this term we start to do our Final Project. I'm so excited with this subject, hope I can execute my idea well.

Tuesday actually we got Game Art and Planning with Jordan, but we change the class to Friday. I think class is my favorite class this term, I'm so excited with our game plan and we also got to play in game room LOL. Yesterday our class play Wii together, it's such a super fun game. At first we play the standard Wii sports with Team Indonesia (consist of me and Wahyu) vs Team Malaysia (the rest of the class) and Team Indonesia win 3-0 woots! XD After that we play Wario for a while. Wario is such a funny game, it reminds me of Bishi Bashi Special. Jordan said actually he want to show more games to us, but because of the time limits he'll only show more games in our next class. Oooh, I love this class.

Wednesday we got Portfolio Presentation with Wai Khong. In this class our project is to sell ourself to agencies so they'll hire us. Actually I really like my idea, but Wai Khong said he already saw similar idea from my senior. Call me perasan or arrogant but after see senior's work I think I can do better than that and my idea is not similar. But I'll think of something else first to make my idea more solid.

Thursday is... the class that I think will be the most boring class in this term, Business and Client Management. No comment so far, since I don't even know and understand yet what's our project is.

The last one is Advanced Web Design, we need to create online capaign for Solar Energy awareness. I'm glad that I'm in the same group with Chen and Dee. I'm quite excited too with this class, because we got interesting topics to do.

Overall, judging from the schedule my lecturers give I think my class won't get enough sleep again this term (like we ever got enough =.=). The good thing is we got many interesting projects and group work, so maybe it won't be so bad.

p.s I plan to buy a handheld console, but still undecided which console I'll buy. Nintendo DS or PSP?

Best and Worst Movie of 2008

2009-01-08T12:27:00.005+08:00

Since it's already 2009, now I think it's time to recall back what best and worst movie that I watched in 2008. I'm not a professional critics, I'm also not a film expert, all movies listed here are just from my personal taste. So it's ok if you're not agree, we just got different taste ;) I rate those movies base on how much I enjoy it, because to me I watch movie to entertain myself, not scared myself to death or annoy me endlessly.

Top 5 Best Movie
1. Wall-E
Cute, funny and simple story of an innocent robot. With beautiful pictures, adorable characters, nice story, it's the best movie I've watch last year.
2. The Dark Knight
It's one of the movie that meets my expectation. Heath Ledger is a perfect joker, I swear I shiver few times in cinema when he started to talk. I also really really love the ending. I think it's one of the best ending I've ever watch. I think I just love unusual ending :P
3. Iron Man
Honestly when I watch this movie, I have no expectation at all. I always assume superhero movie as boring movie with the same "super hero saves the day, bye-bye" kind of stuff. After I watch this movie, I totally change my they way I think about superhero franchise. I remember it's the first movie of 2008 that makes me feel satisfied after I finished watching. Robert Downey Jr played a very realistic Tony Stark. If you read the comic, you'll realize how good the play the role.
4. Red Cliff
Usually I never really fond of Hong Kong movie/drama, because mostly I just don't really "click" with it. But for Red Cliff, I can say it's simple the best Chinese movie I've ever watch. I love the battle scenes, fascinated on how amazing the tactics is. Amazing epic story with Takeshi Kaneshiro in the Movie, what not to love? LOL.
5. Hellboy II: The Golden Army
Guillermo del Toro did his magic again with the movie. Apart from the flat characterization, this movie have lots of stuff that I love. Amazing creatures, the troll market and the the Angel of Death are some of them. Some more I have soft spot for elves, and del Toro create unusual elf that I really love. Overall this movie is very pleasing to eyes and I love how the story goes in the end. Makes me want to wait for the next movie.

Other movies I've yet to watch but I think it'll be great: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Frost/Nixon, Milk, Laskar Pelangi
Other good movies: Miss Pettigrew Lives for A Day, Eastern Promises,

Top 5 Worst Movie of 2008
1. You Don't Mess With The Zohan
Simply the worst movie I've ever watch! It's the movie that makes me want to leave theater as soon as possible, not to mention theres 3 bimbos near my seat that keep giggling and commenting loudly there.
2. Love Guru
Thank God I don't watch this movie in theater and wasted RM10 to watch this stupid movie. Instead I watch it in sel's computer with my housemates and three of us really just can't find anything funny from that movie. Somehow this movie makes me dislikes Jessica Alba.
3. Igor
Not funny, bad characterization, unclear target audience, bad story, etc etc etc. One word: Bad.
4. 21
This movie have great base storyline, but very bad execution. Sel fall asleep when we watch this movie together. Me and Nesia just keep skipping many unimportant and boring parts until the end.
5. Mamma Mia!
Great songs, but I hate the movie. The girls act too annoying and overly dramatic. Not my cup of tea.

Other movies I've yet to watch but I think it'll be awful: Twilight, Max Payne, Punisher, The House Bunny

My New Year's Resolution

2009-01-04T20:16:00.003+08:00

Yeah, I know kinda late to write this since it's already 4th of January, but that's because I really don't have any internet access while I'm in Jakarta D:

Next Year Baby - Jamie Cullum

Usually I never have any new year's resolution :P To be honest I'm a bit afraid of commitment, because I know if I can't fulfill it I'll get so disappointed that I wouldn't want to try again. But I think it needs to change, and I'll start it with my New Year's Resolution! :D
1. Be brave!
I'm afraid of lots of things, while actually I don't need to be afraid of many of them.
Afraid to ask.
Afraid to say.
Afraid to commit.
Afraid to change.
etc etc duh.

2. Eat more healthy food, less junk food!
Will need to eat less McD, KFC and their friends; Will cook healthy food more often! =) I'll also try to have breakfast everyday, drink more plain water, eat more veggies.
After studying in TOA (plus no parents to take care of me D':) I eat too many unhealthy food. I remember last term every week surely me and my housemate got order McD =.=
I also always eat breakfast in hurry (not good for digestion!), sometimes even not eat breakfast at all. Since I have low blood pressure (90/60 while normal around 100-130) breakfast is very important to make my brain functioned normally.
Oh yea, I also need to eat less sugary food.

3. Be nice!
I realize that I don't have the best personality in the world and I got lots of flaws that can hurt other people and myself. While some flaw actually is good for us, I realize many of my flaws need to be changed. Be nice, smile more, be more helpful, etc etc.

4. Be more organize and neat!
Yep, my room is a mess 80% of the time, need to organize more since there's more and more items to inside my room.

5. Try more recipe to cook!
Related to no.2, I'll try to cook more food. Healthy one of course :P It also will save more money if I cook! :)

6. Read more books!
Well I know I'm not somebody important but really, being a design student will makes you become a super busy person. I can only read books in holiday, and I feel that the less I read books, the less I interested to read more! I think I only read less that 25 books in 2008. Need to allow some time to read books! D:

7. Buy less, save more!
Like I say in no.4, there's more and more item inside my room. I realize in 2008 I buy too many unnecessary stuff, spend money on not important thing, etc etc. In 2009 I need to spend less, and save more money. My target is 20%-25% of my allowance per month. Gotta need to make budget sheet I think, since I think it'll get more impact if I see where and how much my money go.

Ok, I think that's all. Wish me luck!
Oh yeah, will update about holiday next time :P

Holiday~!

2008-12-19T16:28:00.004+08:00

Wew, been 2 weeks since last I updated my blog! Been busy with assignment, but now it's all over and I have 2+weeks of holiday =) Even though the first few days of my holiday disturbed by stupid streamyX people who said that we not yet paid our bills so that they cut our internet! =_=" But now the problem already solved, and I'm enjoying my holiday! Nesia already left in 16, and Sel in 17, so I've been alone for 2 days at home and all I do are sleep, eat, play, sleep and eat again! Well at least I cooked my own food. I've successfully cook my first Fettuccine Carbonara and Aglio et Olio! XD Well, cooking is fun, but when I need to clean all the mess I've done, it's no fun anymore =.=

I'll going back to Indonesia tomorrow, so now I've been racing to finish all stuff that I need to do before I go tomorrow.
- ~~Do all laundy~~ > done
- ~~Ironing clothes~~ > done
- ~~Clean my room~~ > done
- Wash all dishes > 0%
- Packing > 75%
- ~~Call taxi~~ > done
- ~~Buy all stuff my mom and sis asked~~ > done
- ~~Print my ticket~~ > done
- ~~clean my shoes~~ > done

Quick Post

2008-12-05T19:24:00.004+08:00

I've been so busy with assignments for this week, sorry for abandoning you, my blog D:

Nothing much to blog actually, but I just feel that I want to blog :P Actually I want to write a super long entry about a movie that I'm interested in, but that must wait for another time. For now, it's just some quick updates about what I've been doing.

1. Almost finished this term, left a bit of 3D modelling, some programming for DM3, and LOTS I mean TONS of programming and animating to do for ADM.

2. Finished the 4 series of Mystery Case Files, just bought the 5th series, Mystery Case Files: Return to Ravenhearst for $9.90(50% off!). I've enjoyed the series a lot, so I think buying this series is a must. Besides, it's on discount! \o/

3. Into some jazz lately. Blame Suba for all of those jazz influence. Currently into Jamie Cullum, Matt Dusk and Michael Buble

Jamie Cullum - These are the days
Uploaded by j3ss

4. Re-watch X-Men, gain back memories on how awesome Nightcrawler is.

5. Think Ryan Reynold abs can be a substitute for washboard. It's TOO defined. Oh yeah, he'll act as Deadpool in X-Men Origin: Wolverine next year.

6. Still think Hugh Jackman is super sexy. Currently use his picture as desktop wallpaper.

7. Been having weird sleeping schedule

8. Been blogging to procrastinate.

What's in My Brain When I See Patterned Tiles

2008-11-29T01:19:00.002+08:00

Comics from XKCD

Frustated Post

2008-11-28T02:31:00.001+08:00

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bites blanket* shite shite shite! I HATE YOU ADM!!!!!! T_______T

Yesterday and Today

2008-11-23T01:42:00.004+08:00

Dear friend...so long
忘れない
くり返す出会いの中
小さな傷跡を
両手に抱えてる僕ら彷徨うばかり
この果てしない世界を見つめる
旅人よ

It's so precious when you have good wishes
Open eyes and see inside of your heart
It's so precious when you have good wishes
Open eyes and see inside of your heart

孤独という鐘の音が
祈りの言葉を誘う
過ぎ去る現実と
やさしく息づく明日は
あなたのすべて
許すでしょう　迷うことはない
歩き出そう

It's so precious when you have good wishes
Open eyes and see inside of your heart
It's so precious when you have good wishes
Open eyes and see inside of your heart

彷徨うばかり
光り目指し歩き続けてる
旅人よ

愛しい友よ　力無くしても
駆け抜けよう　こんな時代を
愛する人よ　やがて互いに
この街に　永遠（とわ）を咲かそう
そして私は　いつの日か又
歌うだろう　旅立つのだろう

la la la la ........

Well, nothing lasts forever.

5 Scenes in Comics That I Love

2008-11-18T19:56:00.014+08:00

Since last term I've been reading some American comics by my friend's recommendation. Honestly at first I didn't expect much, because to me American comics are all just about superheroes fighting. Turns out it's not all about superheroes that save the day. Some comic with very interesting storylines like Fables (a MUST read!), clash between resposibility, belief and rights in Marvel's Civil War (Capt America died nooooooooo T_T), and many more interesting elements. So here I share some of my favorite scenes in some comics that I've read :D

1. Tony Stark's (Iron Man's) confession in Civil War - The Confession
This is the scenes that makes me forgive Iron Man. I think if they didn't include the scenes, I'll ended up hating Iron Man forever =.= Honestly, even though Iron Man in Movie version can melt my heart to cheese but Iron Man in comics makes me want to throw my high heels to his head. He's such a manipulative and stubborn jerk, but by reading the confessions I think it makes me understand him more. He got his reasons, and his reasons maybe will comes true one day so that he try to prevent it. But still, in the end he confessed that all that he did the whole time in civil war wasn't worth it with the death of Capt.

2. Bigby and Snow White's wedding in Fables #50
Actually not just the wedding scenes, but most of the scenes in this chapter but I think this scenes really seal this story. Finally happiness for Snow and Bigby (the wolf from Red Riding Hood!). Snow white who still believe that happiness can only be found in prince charming with his castles and ritches finally understand that that's not all :) Bigby finally come back to her and they marry and live happily in a land between the farm and city so they can keep their child.

3. Ambrose leading the dead to Hoemland in Fables #67
Finally Ambrose lead all those dead fables back to Homeland and establish his own kingdom with those 'ghost' fables. He also teach The Adversary some lessons about not to disturb his kingdom XD Who knows that Ambrose, former frog prince who become a mop guy in Fabletown, finally arise, lead the dead and create a kingdom? :)

4. Cable and Deadpool - Duct Tape
The funniest superhero comic I've ever read! LOLOLOLOL <--- this is how funny it is. A half insane Deadpool with mouth that can't stop talking with Cable who is more serious but still funny when it comes to replying what Deadpool said. This pair also has the best relationship (when they have different opinion about Civil War, they said they 'divorced') and partnership. Actually there's too many scenes that I love in Cable and Deadpool because of the funniness, but this scenes is the one I remember most, when Cable duct taped him(Cable: "at least 1 roll for his mouth alone") and toilet jokes that Deadpool try to use few times before.

5. Abe meet his ghost wife as Caul in B.P.R.D Yes, B.P.R.D is a spin-off from Hellboy. After Hellboy leaving B.P.R.D to know more about himself, Liz leave also to find peace and controlling her power. Abe and Roger been left alone with Abe plan to follow his friends step, leaving B.P.R.D until one day Johann Krauss joined B.P.R.D and Liz calling Abe for help. The scene that I love is when Abe finally meet his wife, but in a form of ghost who tried to keep Abe(Caul) with her forever. Abe, knowing he can't just keep living in this fake reality, force Edith to see the mirror, the reflection of what the reality is. Making Edith realize thet her place is not in living human world anymore, because she's dead. Leaving Abe with a wife he never know. Seriously, B.P.R.D and Hellboy are very good comics, not matter if you hate or love the movie, read the comic. It's amazing with many stories behind all the members. I really really fall in love with this series. Actually again, like other comics I meantion above, there's lots and lots of scenes that I love in this comics. Like Johann Krauss past, his experience on how he fall in love with a ghost that he supposed to help; Liz with his awakening of power; Abe on how he turn out to be him now; Hellboy's history, etc etc. Give it a try!

Yeah, I only put 5 here, even though there's more that I love. Honestly writing this post is harder that I thought since I'm still new in reading American comics. Those comics are awesome and I wish I can spread the awesomeness here XD Quick! Read the comics I recommend now!

Career According to Birth?

2008-11-15T15:41:00.003+08:00

Actually it's been weeks ago since I read this article, but only now I can remember from where I got it LOL. According to research, birth position (oldest, middle, youngest, etc) will be able to affect your personalities, behavior, and learning which ended up affecting your earning power too. So here's the research:

Firstborn:
Personality: Firstborns are ambitious, assertive, dominant and disciplined compared to their younger siblings. They're determined to succeed yet fearful of losing position and rank, and are defensive about errors and mistakes, Dattner says.
Compensation: A recent survey by CareerBuilder.com found that workers who were the firstborn child in their families were more likely to earn $100,000 or more annually compared to their siblings.
Professions: The oldest tend to pursue vocations that require higher education, like medicine, engineering or law. Firstborns from the CareerBuilder.com survey reported working in jobs in government, engineering, pharmacy and science. Ohio State University researchers found firstborn children were more likely to pursue "intellectual" jobs.
Job level: Workers who are firstborn are more likely to report holding a vice president or senior management position, according to the survey.
Famous firstborns: Oprah, Hillary Clinton, Winston Churchill, Sylvester Stallone and Bill Clinton.

Middle:
Personality: Middle children are good at negotiation, peacemaking and compromise, Dattner says. They are easy-going, diplomatic and are usually closer to friends than family.
Compensation: More middle children identified themselves as earning $35,000 or less per year than firstborn or youngest children, according to the CareerBuilder.com survey.
Professions: Middles tend to have excellent negotiating and people skills -- anything that employs these skills is a great fit. Middle children from the CareerBuilder.com survey said they work in nursing, law enforcement, firefighting and machine operation.
Job level: Middle children were more likely to identify with professional and technical staff level positions in the CareerBuilder.com survey. They also reported being the most satisfied with their current positions.
Famous middles: David Letterman, Richard Nixon, Madonna and Princess Diana.

Youngest:
Personality: Youngest children love the limelight and are used to sitting in it. They are charming, creative, have a good sense of humor and manipulate others when they want to get their way.
Compensation: Last borns were the least likely to report earning six figures, according to the CareerBuilder.com survey.
Professions: Youngest children often gravitate toward artistic and outdoor jobs, according to the OSU survey. They're also successful in journalism, advertising, sales and athletics. Those who responded to the CareerBuilder.com survey reported working in art, design, sales and information technology.
Job level: The majority of last borns in the CareerBuilder.com survey held administrative and clerical level positions. They also reported being the least satisfied in their current jobs.
Famous younglings: Jim Carrey, Billy Crystal, Steve Martin, Cameron Diaz and Rosie O'Donnell.
Only children:
Personality: Only children are similar to firstborns in that they are motivated to conform to parental expectations, Dattner says. They are also achievement-oriented, successful in school and have problems delegating work. Research shows they are more confident, articulate and imaginative than other children. They also hate criticism and tend to be perfectionists.
Famous only children: Jack Welch, Tiger Woods, Alan Greenspan and Maria Sharapova.
Twins
Personality: Because of their equal status in terms of age and genes, twins are usually treated the same and turn out similarly. They tend to have different personalities and interests, but are closer to each other than other siblings and to have less conflict with each other than other siblings, Dattner says.
Famous twins: Abigail and Esther Friedman ("Dear Abby" and "Ann Landers"); Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen; Joel and Benji Madden; and Jenna and Barbara Bush.

So, is it true for you? To me it's really true, since I'm the youngest and I'm currently studying design. But it's not so true about my oldest and middle sister thought. I think their role is reversed :P

Plastic Surgery Addict

2008-11-13T00:40:00.005+08:00

Well, I think anyone who consider doing plastic surgery need to read this!

A 48 year old Korean woman who first got his plastic surgery at 28 got addicted and can't stop doing plastic surgery until her own family can't recognize her. They take her for mental treatment, but it didn't last long because of the expensive cost. She soon return to plastic surgery after that. At first no any plastic surgery doctor want to give her more plastic surgery, but then an (insane!) doctor agree to inject silicon to her face, even give her a syringe and silicone for her to inject herself! After she run out of silicon stock, she started using COOKING OIL. As we all predicted, her face become so horrible.

The amazing thing is, because of her mental disorder, even though her face already so disfigured, she still think that she get prettier and prettier everytime she did that! She only realize how her face is after the kids in her apartment complex start calling her names.

You can see more picture here.

Please Help Me Hatch The Egg!

2008-11-11T14:41:00.003+08:00

Please help me hatch the egg! You just need to click the egg. If the egg do not have enough click in 7 days then the egg will die :( So please please please click the egg? :D

Top 5 Online Shopping Sites that I like

2008-11-08T22:17:00.015+08:00

I love shopping. I really really do, but sometimes when the money is just not there, all I can do is just do some window shopping to cheer myself. There's few websites that I like for window shopping. Some websites with reasonable price, come with sky-high price that always makes me choked. But as a window shopper, it's always a delight for me to see nice stuff :P

From window shopping experience on the net, these are few stores that makes me scream "ARRRGGG!!! It's just too pretty!!!!! I WANT!!!!" everytime I go to their shop. So let the list begin~ :D

1. Shop Ruche
Shop Ruche is one of my favorite online shop. Nice shopping website with reasonable price, nice design, and nice range of items! I especially like the accessories, which mostly are vintage-inspired :) Their shoes and dresses also very nice, I like the feminine and simple design. Their new range of scarfs also worth checking! If you're confuse about what style you want to shop, they have look book for you to refer to.
Some items that I love:

2. Shy Siren
Etsy is an online store where people could sell either their handmade or special hand picked stuff. There's a lot of stuff you can find there, from clothing, cremics, books, even plants! This website is a bit like eBay, but with better items and design. Most of the stuff are affordable, high quality with nice design.

Shy Siren is one of the stores in Etsy. A handmade earring shop, with many many beautiful design. Mostly their items are vintage inspired with intricate designs.
3. BirdzNbeez
You'll find very very interesting jewelry design here. The handmade jewelry are made using antique silver plate and aged brass, embellished with vintage glass beads, swarovski crystals, semi precious stones and pearls.
4. Kreativlink
Kreativlink is an online store that sells handmade journals. All the journals there are unique, one of the unique journal is journal with cover made of fabric and hand drawn illustrations.

5. Oh and Ah
Last but not least, Oh and Ah! It's not an online shopping website, but they have their online cataloque in their website. Everytime I see new items there I feel like stealing them! D: From the nicely designed badges, pretty tops and cute accesories are there! With reasonable price and nice design, what's not to love? So far I never be able to go to any of their open houses thought D: Click on the poster below or go to their website to see their next open house! :)
So that's all! Somehow I really have fun writing this entry xD Hope you guys like it :)

Literal Video Song

2008-11-05T23:55:00.002+08:00

I've just see some videos in YouTube about singing the song literally according to the video. Really really funny! xD There's so many version, but I think so far this is my favorite:

MM068-1's BBQ Party in Port Dickson!

2008-11-05T00:02:00.013+08:00

Well, as I mentioned many many times already, our class was having a trip to PD for 2 day and 1 night. Yes, in midterm, when our assignment ready to kill us. Quoted from my YM conversation:

lunatic_rave: where is PD? sounds far
tanyus.indrayani: yea, about 1-2 hours from Sunway. We go there for BBQ. All the way to PD for BBQ. In midterm, with loads of assignment piling in front of us.
lunatic_rave: you guys are nuts

Our trip started in the morning, me and Sel wake up at 6.30am, with Chen threatening us that she'll to do a marathon of calling if we didn't want to wake up. We go to KTM behind Metari at 8am, arrive at KL Sentral around 8.30 and then having breakfast there. I tried to find picture where chen using her sleeping bag as a bazooka (also claiming a trash bin in KL Sentral as her base), but no such luck. Too bad, it's our main entertaiment when we're waiting for Chris to pick us up.

Finally around 9am Chris come and we started our journey to PD!! Whee~ At first we're quite 'normal', but then as time goes by seems like our inner camwhore self started to appear! Behold the super camwhore pict! (OKla, to save your eyes from blindness I'll just put few here)

At first it's only started with Dee & Sel camwhoring

But me and Chen soon joining them!

While Chris seriously driving and Wahyu... umm seriously daydreaming? ^^;

And finally, finally, finally!!! We arrive at our chaley~

This first thing that we do after putting our stuff inside: Playing a fighting game!!! :D
Team Malaysia vs Team Indonesia!!
Result: 6 vs 2. Team Indonesia lose~ T.T

After the tiring screaming session, Wahyu and Chris started doing their 'research' about violence in game by playing God of War while Dee, Chen and Sel doing some 'photoshoot'

Biggest babies ever

And I don't want to feel left out so...

me as old wife, chen as suami gatal, dee as concubine HAHAHA!

A photo I won't proudly show to my children in future.
After that I happily sleep until 5pm hohoho~ While I sleep Cen, Dee and Sel preparing the kebab on satay sticks. So here's our foods! :D

chicken kebab with peppers, cherry tomatoes, and cheese! marinated by Dee

rolled lamb meat with asparagus and mushroom. marinated by Chen

and corns!! cut by me, with all strength that I have, since the corns are as hard as wood. Actually we also got chicken wings, but somehow nobody take the photo lol. Btw, all the food tasted amazing. Even the wood-hard corn tasted surprisingly sweet. Around 5pm+ we fo to the beach! Not the cleanest beach ever, but clean enough for us to play :)

Chen's Daniel "James Bond" Craig pose

Chris relaxing, our photographer fot the jump session :D

The only one non-blur picture of Wahyu on the beach!

The attempt to drown me =_=" from our drown each other jokesJump seesion!

Then we go back to chaley to take our BBQ stuff, and the BBQ begin!!

Nice sunset~

Guess who?

The BBQ!
Our lemon girlPosing in front of our BBQ~
Surprise Bday cake for Chris!Dee & Bday girl
Attempt to squeeze 6 of us in 1 frame
The pretty cat that we meet in PD

Wahh actually there's many more to tell, but this entry already too long! Maybe I'll update the second part later :P

New Layout!

2008-11-02T02:07:00.003+08:00

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Finally I change the layout! Blogger's system is really confusing =_=" Luckily I got basic in html, if not I think I'll just give up =.=

For now I'll just use font style from default. Tell me if it's hard to read ya :) And btw, I like the cat~ hohoho.

For now there's nothing interesting to write here. Must wait for photos from Dee's and Wahyu's camera first before I can post anything about our bbq :) For now, it's my favorite picture while we're in PD.

Stay Tune

2008-10-29T22:39:00.001+08:00

Our class will go to Port Dickson tomorrow for BBQ! We'll back on Friday. So stay tune for the trip report! 8D

Gasp Layout Gone Wrong!

2008-10-26T19:46:00.001+08:00

One click to revert button, then my layout back to this default template...
I think I'll try to modify it...

Mole?

2008-10-25T01:36:00.002+08:00

Well, my bad habit when I'm doing my assignment is every now and then I 'rest' from work and browse for any interesting thing in web. Since I like to read blog, I often click here and there until I got interesting blog to read. And somehow, I found this entry about the meaning of your mole! Funny how mole can tell about your fortune and such. I don't really believe in fortune telling, but I always like to try it anyway. How about you? What's the meaning of your mole? LOL.

Not As Cool As Me

2008-10-22T23:35:00.005+08:00

earthquake_tool: I'm watching gundam
earthquake_tool: cool
earthquake_tool: =3=
Tanyus Indrayani: not as cool as me -3-
earthquake_tool: gundam is cooler
earthquake_tool: you don't have the GN drive
earthquake_tool: =3=
Tanyus Indrayani: gundam is not as cool as me
Tanyus Indrayani: because there's no me in gundam
earthquake_tool: if you ride gundam how the gundam would be
earthquake_tool: =3=
earthquake_tool: gundam yani?
Tanyus Indrayani: hmm cool yah
Tanyus Indrayani: gundam yani -3-
earthquake_tool: apaan
earthquake_tool: =.=

Umm...

2008-10-21T05:24:00.006+08:00

I can't sleep. Again. My body clock really messed up la these few days =_=
Somehow my mind keep telling me to blog, so here I am, blogging at 5.25 am.

We're talking about autism in our class this Monday, and somehow it leads to OCD. I think all my classmates already know my OCD-ness. I used to have terrible OCD, but now I can control most of my OCDness. But there's still some of my OCD that I can't and somehow I don't want to stop. It makes me frustated sometimes, but I just can't help it. My mind will keep bugging me about that.

So here's few things that I can't stop entirely:
- Time time time! I'm so strict about time that I set for myself. I'm not upset anymore if I don't meet my own standards, but I still feel the satisfacton everytime I can finish something on time that I set. Still can't help to set time for almost everything that I do.

- Tiles. My worst nemesis ever. Actually not only tiles, but mostly tiles. I never want to step on the spaces between tiles, you know, the lines. If I'm in my house in Jambi it's even worse, since I was kid I've already set which tiles I must step for each room, even which foot I must step on with. Sometime when I was idle I'll unconsciously step on the tiles with some patterns that I set.

- Anything related to food. My spoon and fork must be similar in weight, better if they actually got matching pairs. Can't break up the rice, keep the shape like the original. Food must newly cooked, or at least make me think so. That's why I hate mix rice, they already cook it like many hours ago before I choose the food. But lately I can eat mix rice in chola spice. Definitely improvement. If my food is something rectangular, I'll eat each sides before I eat the center part. Same thing with burger. Oh yea my instant noodles spices, soy sauce, oil, anything must be mixed together until they mix nicely; and the noodles must be shattered to small pieces.

- Computer programs and files. I always make sure when I leave my computer, even though I just go to toilet, I close all programs or at least minimize all programs. I hate seeing lots of tabs in my computer, keep everything as minimum as possible. Files placed in folders, I can't stand seeing stray files in desktop. I ever offer selvia to clean and organize her desktop lol. My bookmarks must have folders too. Can't stand stray bookmarks outside folders.

I think that all I can think for now, quite little compared to before. Oh yea, I also like cornering and centering stuff, but I think that's quite normal though...

Addiction

2008-10-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

Agghhhhh I currently addicted to 30 Rock! These few days I've been marathon-ing the comedy series. I even watch the series while doing my assignment! @_@ Better quick finish it before I can't stop myself =_=
Btw, after watch this show I realize that Tine Fey looks like Angela Aki. But it might be the glasses and hair... Whatever! I love this series and will recommend this series! It's very funny, except for the first episode, dunno why I just can't get the jokes there. But this series worth a try, after I watch the second episode, I fall in love with this show! :)

Song of the day:

your song - ewan mcgregor

Australia

2008-10-15T23:22:00.003+08:00

I love love love Hugh Jackman and adore Nicole Kidman, so I won't miss this movie! =) Some more the director is the director who make Moulin Rogue! I'm so coming to the cinema~ 8D

What's in a name?

2008-10-15T00:20:00.003+08:00

Well, quoting from William Shakespeare

What's in a name? That which we call a rose
By any other name would smell as sweet.

Having unusual name as Tanyus Indrayani giving me quite a... well not exactly trouble, but more to a misunderstanding and such. Dunno why many Indonesians can't pronounce my name normally. There's so many 'variations' in my name, such as "tanjus"', "tenyus", "tangus", "tenjuus", and many more. My name also always mistaken as a boy's name since kinder garden until high school! So every time I see my name like this:

Tanyus Indrayani (L) <--- laki-laki/male

And the name "Indrayani" is not helping too. Indra usually use for boy's name, and Yani also not exactly girl's name. While my sister still got "Sumyati" which obviously a girls name. Oh yea, when I want to apply to bank in Malaysia, the CS ask me if I have any Indian blood because I got "Indra" in my name LOL. I really don't know from where my parents got the creative name, but I suspect it comes from my errrr surname "Tan" and my father's name, Yus Suryamin. For the Indrayani I think at that time my parents really want boy la hahaha. Other than that, I really don't know any reason behind my weird name.

But I'm proud of my name anyway. How many people in the world got the name Tanyus? :P

The Ugly Duckling

2008-10-11T08:17:00.003+08:00

Since I was so young, many people asked me the same question "why you do not look like your mom/sis/dad?". Yea, my mom is very beautiful, my dad is handsome, and my sis are very pretty. I got the point.

I used to be so upset every time anybody asked me that question. I was very insecure and self conscious on how I look like. Usually I just keep quiet every time that question being asked, just run and cry in my room. A guy even said to me "you ignoring me now, but you know that's true!". My secondary teachers also never believe when they know that I'm my sister's sis. They thought it's just a coincidence that we share the same name (well, how many people in the world got the name Tanyus???). So now, I guess you get the point on how not alike we are.

Tired of being compared to my sis, I try my best to even become not alike to them. Just to make people happy that there's someone so not alike in family. Dunno why they're so fascinated and happily comparing us. On how ugly I am, how dark my skin is (compared to my sis!), how tomboy I was, and the list goes on.

I guess studying here giving me good antidote. With nobody that can compare us, I feel free to be myself. I think a lot, feel the difference, and just enjoy it. Now I could just smile and say whatever to anybody who ask that question. Not that I care. Now I realize that I should not feed the troll. I make fool of myself by reacting to those trolls. Why should I care anyway? People who asked that kind of question usually not important for me. They're not my sisters, not my father, not my mother. The most important thing is people who I love do not care on how I look like. They'll still love me anyway. So trolls, feed yourself, cause I won't feed you anymore.

If Only...

2008-10-05T15:58:00.002+08:00

It's not even November yet, but I've been planning to buy my air tickets to Indonesia. I dunno if I should go back this December or not. If I go back this December, maybe I can't go back in Chinese new year. Actually air tickets for KL-Jakarta is not so expensive, but for Jakarta-Jambi is insanely expensive. Darn, if only air tickets is not that expensive!

If I don't go back this December, I will miss my cousin's wedding and our family's new year celebration. Usually all my cousins will come to our house and we'll have bbq together. Ahhhhhh :( But if I don't go back in Chinese new year it'll even sadder. Like last year, no sa cap meh dinner with my family, no visiting relatives, no ang bao until I go back! :P

Gah, maybe I'll just stay in KL this December.

There's Love :)

2008-09-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

たしかに - アンジェラ・アキ

Journey to Pavillion

2008-09-28T17:07:00.004+08:00

Well, yesterday me, Sel, Nesia and Audrie go to Pavillion for shopping because Audrie said she never go there before. So instead of the usual Sunway Pyramid, we go to Pavillion. Well, the stuffs there are expensive so there's so many stuffs that's impossible for us to buy, but somehow I still manage to buy 3 stuff that I've already planned the night before: bag, skirt, cardigan with reasonable price :D

First we go to Trangs (if I'm not mistaken) and I they really got many nice stuffs, the price is still reasonable (unlike other big brand with sky-high price =_=) and they got really nice interior. I especially like the ceiling lamp that they use for base floor, it's really beautiful with morroccan touch. There we see some really nice headpiece, but since I'm not an accessory person I don't buy any of them. I try not buy items unless I'm sure to where/when/for what I'm gonna use them. I hate keeping stuffs =_=

After we finished our shopping, we go downstairs for dinner, but to our horror we pick the wrong time. It's buka puasa time! So the foodcourt crowded by almost entire population in KL. We walk here and there, back and forth for one and half hours to no avail. Finally for lack of choice we ended up in Nando's (where we must wait for 30+minutes before we got any seat!) for dinner. The foods in Nando's are nice, I like my burger so much and the peri chips is awesome! ;) The only bad things is the price is killing my purse T__T

And oh yea, there's anothing thing that killing me. My heels! As much as I love them, my new purple heels really torture my feet to the max yesterday. Actually it's my calcullation that fails me. I thought our shopping will only last for about 3 hours, while it ended up for 6 hours! Thanks to the full foodcourt =_= I think I won't wear my heels for the next 3 days. Resting my feet, I must.

Btw, since I love my bag so much, I think I must post it here xD

To Mask or To Unmask

2008-09-26T17:55:00.007+08:00

Recently I heard a story from friend about the other friend who said that she's wearing mask everyday. Well, ofcourse you know what mask means here, she's pretending. Well, actually I'm not so sure about what she means by pretending here, but it makes me think about some other things.

I can't really blame people for pretending. If that's your choice, why other people need to bother? Do they prefer the 'real' you? Okay, for example there's A, a normal Jane with normal social life, surrounded by many friends. Her friends like her because she's such nice girl. What they don't know that actually she's a super cynical girl whose frank in giving opinion, only she always restrain that act. So she always try to be nice and proper, never say hurtful stuff to other people even though her cynical mind make some remarks about it. What's wrong with that? Do you prefer the cynical girl A, or the nice girl A?

Admit it, most people just want to hear what they want to hear. When you know your friend have figth with his/her girl/boyfriend, and actually you think that their girl/boyfriend is such an ass and not worth his/her affection, would you tell him/her straghtly to just forget about him/her blah blah that you must break up blah blah she/he's such an ass blah blah? Even though that's the truth, I bet 8 out of 10 people won't do that. Why? Because people just want to hear what they want to hear, they want comfort, not the truth. And if you tell the truth, everything will become awkward later. If they really break up, they will eventually blame you because you're the one who trigger it. If they do not break up, they'll think you're a bad influence for their relationship for 'trying' to separate them. Either way you'll still be the bad guy.

How can you blame people for pretending to be nice? Is it better to just show your dislikeness? Some people can control their dislikeness towards other people, so why blame them for controlling it? Not everyone blessed with nice personality like you. Some people just grew up in a f**ked-up environment that shaped their personality into a f**ked-up one too. Not everyone think that world is all about raibows, butterflies and many other pretty things.

So for some people, mask is their essential tools to survive. While other people who never need to wear mask call masked people as a sad hypocrite whose not worthy for many things that they can't enjoy without wearing mask. Is it wrong to pretend to be a nice person? Is it wrong to want to be liked?

Please don't say something like "well, sometime it's needed, but if ME, I'll only so that when it's needed"
Yes, yes, you're right and I can't say that's wrong for all people also do that.
But what I want to say here is "Can you blame people for wearing mask?"
So people... to mask, or to unmask?

Missing

2008-09-20T02:59:00.004+08:00

Suddenly I remembered something that I've ever discussed with Chen. Will distance brings us closer? At first I said yes, because I feel that after me and my sis separated we become closer. Before, we fought everyday, she can't stand me I can't stand her, she can't understand me I can't understand her, She want this I want that too. After she live in Jakarta, suddenly everything changed. Maybe we just matured, or maybe we just don't have anything left to fight? I dunno. Maybe it's just that now we're apart we can see something that we can't see before? Or if only I didn't yell at her at that time everything will just be okay? Maybe she's not that annoying at all? That actually the presence of another is important to us? Maybe. I don't really know what, but I know that me and my sis know how to make our sisterly relationship work now ;)

But how about friendship? I would say no. Maybe it's just for me, but at least that how it happened to me. Now I really have no any way to contact my best friend. I don't how she's doing, she never reply my sms or pick up my call, she never reply my comment in friendster, she never online in her MSN anymore, and the only time I've ever met her after I come here was one and half years ago, in beginning of January 2007. Her family moved to another city, so even though her uni got holiday, she won't come back to our hometown. I don't know what went wrong, maybe it's my fault, maybe I did a wrong thing, but really I don't know why. What's wrong?

Maybe there's something wrong, or actually there's nothing wrong. For now, I don't know what actually happened. But maybe one day I'll know. Maybe.

Because

2008-09-19T23:06:00.003+08:00

I think my weight fluctuates worse than inflation. When I get back here 2 weeks ago I was 47.5kg; about 4 days ago I was 46kg; and now I'm 48.5kg. Time to buy new scale?

Btw, this week I spend my time playing lots and lots of point and click game. So far, all I can say that I'm quite frustrated playing some games in this genre and I hate black and white interface.

And actually I don't know what I want to say in this post, but I feel like posting something in my semi comatose blog. So bear with my super random post from now on.

Can't Sleep

2008-09-16T04:14:00.006+08:00

Can't sleep, even though I feel so sleepy. I've counted more than 800 sheep, changed my sleeping position, eating 2 bar of chocolate, and I still can't sleep.

Random quiz/test:

What Color Are You?

Relational psychology tests
1. Imagine yourself on board a boat that is sinking. You manage to swim to a life boat and climb in. How many people do you see in the life boat with you?
--> Lots, the boat almost full.

2. You row to the shore and see a vast desert before you. You collect some belongings and supplies, and head out across the desert in search of salvation. How many pairs of shoes do you use?
--> only one, my dream shoes red anemone Christian Louboutin!

3. After much hard travel, you climb a rise of dunes and see a city in the distance. You also notice an oasis not too far away. Do you stop and rest at the oasis for as long as you want, only rest there for a minute, or keep heading towards the city?
--> rest for a while

4. Upon entering the city, you see a castle that intrigues you and decide to go to it. After passing the gates you find yourself walking down the length of a long corridor leading to the throne room. You enter and see a king and a queen sitting side by side on the throne. What do both the king and the queen look like? What characteristics do they seem to embody?
--> errr I imagine that they they looks like king and queen in cards. Maybe I see cards too much today...

5. You leave and go down a spiral stairway. It's dark and shadowy, with torches lit intermittently along the walls. As you're walking down a lady (if you are a man) or a knight (if you are woman) from the court passes you by. You only catch a glimpse of their face, and they remind you of someone you know. Who did you see?
--> OMG ...Heath Ledger?

6. The stairs lead you to a banquet room and you see this long table with a golden goblet in the middle of the table. Looking inside the goblet, how full of wine is it?
--> Almost full

Analysis:

1. How many true friends you perceive you have.

2. How many true loves you'll have before getting married.

3. Your personal work ethic.

4. What you imagine your ideal mate to be like. --> like king in cards?? with long white beard? O________O

5. This is the person you'll never get over for the rest of your life. --> WOW

6. How full it is represents how much of yourself you give in a relationship.

Ulla Zang Pictures

You are easy-going yet discreet. You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life and enjoy yourself. You need space, so you escape to beautiful hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer.

Reflection of Life

Imagine yourself in a forest or a jungle

1. What is the first animal you see?

--> err tiger

2. What is the second animal you see?

--> Lion

Imagine now there is a hut in front of you....

3. Do you :

--> Pass it

Now imagine yourself in the hut.

4. There are twenty candles in it, how many will you light up?

--> all

5. You see a table inside? Is it square or round?

--> round

6. How many chairs do you see around the table?

--> 3-4

7. There is a jug on the table. What material is the jug made of?

--> glass

8. How much water is inside the jug?

--> 3/4

You have stepped out of the hut and you start walking

9. You reach a beautiful waterfall. How fast is the waterfall? (from one to nine, one is the slowest and nine is the fastest)

--> rated 6-7

10. How many swans are there near the waterfall?

-->4-5

11. Now you have reached the river bank and your destination is just opposite. How do you cross over?

--> Find another way to cross.Use bridge la! +_+

Analysis

1. This question symbolizes the "reflection of your life". --> so? tiger? +_o

2. This question symbolizes the "character of your life partner". --> LION? LION???

3. a. Walking past means that you are not ready for relationships.

4. This question is about your generosity. The more you light up, the more generous you are.

5. A square table means that you are stubborn, a round table means that you are flexible.

6. This actually shows your hospitality. The more the better!

7. This refers to the material of your heart

8. This refers to the amount of love that you will give to your partner

9. The speed refers to your sex drive

10. The number of swans symbolizes the number of best friends you have.

11. This means that you think before you act.

Actually I took many other quiz, some are silly and funny, like which toilet cubicle will you choose? LOL. Actually our choice of toilet cubicle also can show our personality? Weird. Also a weird test based on period cycle! My face goes like this: d(OoO)b when I read the quiz.

Ugh.. almost 5 a.m ToT I wish I can sleep~! Think I'll fall asleep in DM3 later =_=

First Week in TOA

2008-09-12T14:03:00.003+08:00

Dang... I can't believe that I'm in my 3rd year now!!!!!!! *faint* Okay, so dunno why I'm so lazy to start my new term, maybe because the day before I got sooo tired because I need to clean our entire place in Mentari. Me and sel throw water to the floor and play with water! xD It's fun, but super tiring man. And our neighbor really should stop throw their rubbish in front of our house, because I really think about installing a security camera to catch the culprit!

Okay okay back to topic. So the first day is Motion Graphic with Joanne Kok. It's nice to be teach by her again, and motion graphic seems fun. Even though I don't really understand about how I need to use Adobe EA yet. Btw, our first assignment is... typography in motion! Dang! again... Honestly I'm not so good in typography, so this assignment worries me.

The second day is my worst nightmare, Le Design Method 3! I'm quite traumatize by Design Method 2 so I'm worried about DM3. Hope I can do it better than 2 previous term D: Sweii become our lecturer again, with Sook Chiung as tutor.

Third day is 3D, where we meet Kenny again :D 3D is quite fun, so far mo troubles with it. Oh yea, our class combined with our seniors!!! Dang dang doeng now. I've already get used to our small class, so when 3D glass got lots of people (more than 10 is lots to me :P) I feel so weird about it. After 3D we got branding with Vincent. All I can say that he still the same as last term LOL.

Then finally the fourth day, meet again with Digital Media, only now we're in advanced class already :) Hazmer still teach us... for 3 weeks only. Actually I'm quite dissapointed that he won't teach us this term :( Why can't you wait for another term, Hazmer???? Class is fun, so far. Not yet touch the programming, that's why I can say that :P

Btw, yesterday we buka puasa with Wahyu and Hazmer. As usual, we eat in Sushi Zanmai. I really think we must find a new dinner location... We talked about many many nonsense there, from Hazmer's orang asli picture to greetings ala Malaysia (guess how? stick your tongue, raise both your thumb and wide open your eyes LOL). After that we go to starbucks to play a music game. Very fun and interesting game, and after that I'm thinking about buying a DS lite too. Hazmer can apply as sales promoter of nintendo now.

Kittens, Onlympic and Character Death

2008-08-20T14:54:00.004+08:00

Woots! My cat give birth to 3 kittens today! She keep meow-ing since 5.30, but finished the labor around 10.30~ Congrats, mommy cat!

Btw, also want to congrats Indonesia for getting gold medal in onlympic! :D Go go Indonesia! Too bad we didn't win any medal from single player in badminton though. But it' already very good, ok! :D We only send 24 players and so far we already gotn 5 medal so far :)

Actually our goverment promised the athlete that if they got any medal they will got a big amount of cash. No wonder all athlete become so motivated :P For gold medalist they will get Rp1Billion (around US$100,000++), silver will get Rp300million (around US$34,000), bronze will get around Rp125million (around US$15,000). According to what I read in newspaper Singapore is the country who will pay the most if their athlete got gold medal, they'll give 1million euro! @_@ That's because the last medal that they ever got was in 1996~

Btw, just finished reading Cable and Deadpool comic. And I'm sooooooooooo angry!!!!! Why Cable must die??????? At first I thought they'll resurrect him again (just like before) but then actually they really kill him!!! T____T Why the characters that I like almost always die?????? What the heck man!!!! T_________T

I also re-read The Silmarillion (The history of middle earth before the war of the ring in Lord of the Rings), and again, the characters that I like dieeeeeeee~~~~~~ T___T
1. Ereinion Gil-Galad
Why the high king of Noldor die????? T____T He's the last high king! T__T
2. Echtelion
After killing Gothmog and another 2 balrogs you kill him????
3. Glorfindel
Killed after he kill a balrog too, stupidly getting killed because the Blarog snatched his hair and bring him down to valley with the balrog. Well, at least he'll ressurected again later.
4. Maedhros and Maglor
2 of 7 sons of Feanor, if only the oath didn't consume them... :( And the last scene when Maglor throw the silmaril to the sea and sing his lament is really really sad T____T

Well, at least Elrond survived all of the chaos though. But he really really got such a tragic fate T__T

Hello Again

2008-08-17T14:41:00.003+08:00

Well, the second entry from Jambi! ;) This holiday makes me realize how good it is to sleep and wake up normally. I always feel refreshed everytime I wake up, not tired and moody. Oh, the joy of normal life!

And I've just finished reading comic books that I got before, and it makes me fall in love with...
Johann Kraus! xD Yea, it's Johann Kraus from Hellboy (from B.P.R.D actually)! In comic Johann do not looked as good as in movie LOL, but he really really is a gentleman in comic while in movie he's such an ass. I think I prefer the characteruzation in comic rather than in movie. While in movie Abe is gentle and quiet, in comic he's sarcastic and cool. Fits him better I think. And all characters in comic got more depth and unfortunately, sad past :(

I really confuse about I wanted to say for the whole week. So difficult la to summarize all events for whole week in one entry. But my family now really busy in preparing for tomorrow's festival. Every year in my hometown, every 18th August there will be festivals to remember about our independence day. Will take photos of it, if I have the time. We'll be very very busy tomorrow. My mom will cook nasi lemak! And my mom's nasi lemak is the best! ;)

Will update again later! Eat now!

Hello from Jambi!

2008-08-10T14:53:00.003+08:00

Well, in my hometown now wth the legendary super slow DIAL-UP internet connection. Opening my e-mail in 10 minutes. Sweet. How I miss my hometown.

So far I eat lots of food, and what a wonderful spicy food I've ate <3 Satay, soto, soup, rendang, empek-empek, bakso, tekwan, etc etc~ Actually I want to post some pictures of the said food, but my super slow connection just not allowing me to do that. To open blogger I need more than 10 minutes, imagine for how long I need to wait to upload photos?

I still can online in my MSN and YM from my cellphone though, even though the connection is equally sucks, keep disconnecting me every now and then. I also can't use internet too much because it's so damn expensive here. So I will not updating my blog as often as before.

Btw, got a very binteresting comic strip about bloodtype here. What is your bloodtype? :)
Since my papa is A and my mama is O, so I must have fenotipe AO (A). That explains my mixed behavior between bloddtype A and O. Quite interestng :)
Well, let me guess my classmates' bloodtype!
Chen --> either A or O, but more to A I think
Chris --> B or AB
Dee --> B
Selvia --> O
Wahyu --> must be a pure A!
Correct me if I'm wrong~
wookay, my laptop almost die now, which means I must off now! Will update again next week!

Waiting and Waiting

2008-07-29T17:33:00.004+08:00

In airport now, seems like I come too early, still got one and half hour before the flight :P Well that's because I estimated the way from mentari to airport would be around 2 hours, but somehow the taxi driver drive like mad that makes me reach here in just 1 hour and 15 minutes! Good thing here got internet so I can spend my time online-ing. Bad think I got lots of stuff to carry, from laptop, camera, to 2 alcohol drink that my papa asked me to buy. Would be so troublesome if I need to go to toilet later =.= And I also my laptop battery will last until next hour >_< Well, just read chen's blog and I really love the picture there because all of us are smiling :) Now it becomes my desktop wallie~

Btw, in love with OneRepublic song, All We Are :)

All We Are - OneRepublic

I tried to paint you a picture, the colors were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you, and all along
You were shaded with patience, and strokes of everything
That I need just to make it, and I believe that...

The time could tear you apart, but it won't break
Anything that you are, you are

We won't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

I walked a minute in your shoes, they never would have fit
I figured there's nothin to lose, I need to get
Some perspective on these words, before I write them down
You're an island and my ship is running ground.

The time could tear you apart,
but it won't change
Anything that we are, we are

We won't say our goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi

And every single day that I can breathe,
You change my philosophy,
I'm never gonna let you pass me by

So don't say your goodbye's, you know it's better that way,
We won't break, we won't die, it's just a moment of change
All we are, all we are is everything that's right
All we need, all we need, a lover's alibi (x2)

-OneRepublic, All We Are

French Fries with Bolognaise Sauce

2008-07-28T23:31:00.005+08:00

Well, I make french fries with bolognaise sauce for dinner, even though it may sounds weird but trust me it tasted amazing! :) Sadly there's no photos of the food, because I was too hungry to take photos :P

Tomorrow I'll go back to Indonesia! Somehow AirAsia just can't make their minds and keep changing the schedule. At first the official schedule is 21.30, but then yesterday they informed me that it rescheduled to 23.30! =.= Not only until there, just now I just know that they rescheduled again to 19.30 =_= I think I'll be so freaking annoyed if they suddenly change the schedule again =_=# Everytime they change the schedule I must re-plan again what I'm gonna do for tomorrow, re-timing everything again. D'uh.

Btw, there was some miscommunication between me and my sister that caused me staying in Jakarta until Sunday. Sunday!!! That means 3 freaking day alone~~!!!!! From Wednesday to Friday I'll be alone at my sister's place because they need to go to work :( Even my friends who study in Jakarta all are in Jambi now for holiday! :( 3.freaking.days! But I know that actually there's so many things that I need to do this holiday =.=
1. Do some inprovement for my Mobil's website
2. Do the calendar challange
3. Do 1 blog design for desig[NERD]s
4. Do 1 design for my own personal space :)
5. Reading tons of Marvel, DC & Dark Horse comics that I got
6. Reading books that Chris borrowed me
Dunno if I can finish all!

Btw, finally re-watch Hellboy II today. And you know? I wasn't dissapointed at all :) There actually quite many scene that I missed when I watch it for the first time. And I think Prince Nuada really really win my love xD Did anyone noticed that he has such a nice voice? I think I really weak with guys with nice voice <333 First Hugo Weaving, and now Luke Goss <3333

After we watch Hellboy, the movie marathon continued, we watched Sex & the City because Nesia really want to watch it :) I think the fashion in the movie is just not for me, the only thing that caught my attention was the shoes that Carrie wore with a big flowered white dress. About the story, it's just so-so for me. Nothing too special, but I think Samantha is really funny LOL. And somehow Charlotte reminds me with... Selvia! Hahahahaha! *ROFL* And oh yea, this movie got lots of cuts here and there, so better watch it on DVD.

Random Post

2008-07-27T14:59:00.006+08:00

Dee's & Wahyu's early bday celebration in Italliannies last week! :D
Wahyu's bday actually in August 4 and Dee in August 19, but because most of us will not be in Malaysia at the time, we decided to celebrated it early :)

Btw, me and Nesia planned to watch Hellboy II again! Why? Because when I watch it for the first time, we came late and missed some scene :( Like when Prince Nuada come to auction and kill everyone there with releasing tooth fairy, when Hellboy's 'father' tell him the story about the Golden Army, etc etc. So we're thinking about watching the movie again :)

Movie Recap

2008-07-25T22:45:00.004+08:00

Song of the day, the week, and possibly the month:

Cant smile without you - Barry Manilow
I blame Hellboy and Abe for this D:
And I really can't help but to smile everytime I hear this song :)

Btw, lately I watch lots of movies, and all are satisfying for me :)
1. Hellboy II: The Golden Army
Even though the storyline is quite weak, I still really love this movie. Why? I always love fantasy movie, and I think Guillermo Del Toro really win my love when he create such a beautiful fairytale-like world.

I really really love the scene where Prince Nuada come to elven kingdom. Love the setting, love the costume, love the colors, love the creatures, love the fighting scene, and also really love the prince LOL. Somehow long silver-haired man always pwn me. Oh yea, somehow I also really like the princess :)

Another thing that really win my love is the creatures. Visit the official website, there you can see some design and description of the fantasy creatures. Very interesting design and description of the creature :)

So the conclusion is, if the thing that you want to see in a movie is a beautiful visual, watch Hellboy II, but if you want to find strong story, maybe this movie will not so suitable for you :)

Now the problem is, I can't wait for Guillermo to finish directing movie The Hobbit, prequel of The Lord of The Rings! :)

2. The Dark Knight
The long awaited movie! Since the first time I see the trailer, I really can't wait to watch this movie. Great movie, but I think the one that steal the show is not Batman, but Joker.

Agree with what Chen said in her blog, Heath Ledger is the perfect Joker. Psychotic, fearless and frightening, The Dark Knight really become his show. Really love the way he talk, the crazy tone tone that he use really the win.

Too bad that Batman himself do not really give me many impact, the only scene where I like about him is only at the end, where he sacrifice himself so Gotham will not lose their hero.

Also really hate when Harvey Dent become Two Face :( I really like him since the beginning, so this changes really disappoint me. Actually it won't be so disappointing if only he didn't die that soon. If only his changes will saved until the next movie where he'll become the next super villain, I don't think I'll be as disappoint as this though.

But overall, nice movie, Heath Ledger really won't disappoint you :)

3. Red Cliff
An unexpectedly great movie for me. At first I'm not so excited about this movie, but since they got lots of good review, I think I'll just give it a go. And what? I watch this movie 2 times already :P

A very nice movie, I think it possibly the best Asian movie I watch so far.

Very interesting story, afterall it based in The Romance of Three Kingdom :)
I really love the story, and the visual also pleasing to eyes.
Somehow I just don't know what to say about this movie, all I can say is: WATCH IT!
You won't be disappointed :)

Now I gonna continue play games :) Got a very interesting game, will review it later I think :)

Life in TOA

2008-07-14T22:08:00.007+08:00

We're having a breakfast (actually lunch) date this morning with our lecturer, Yenny. It's really nice to chat with her again, she's such a nice and fun lecturer! :) Hope we will having more dates with her. After the date we go to gallery and messing around with the guestbook there :P

Damages caused by desig[NERD]s + Chong

We really really random, drawing characters and write nonsense stuff. It's really fun how we ended up fighting for space hahaha! And we also convinced our lecturer, Chong to draw his character there, the little devil (not the fallen devil, that's chen's). Because of the activity, our class postponed until 1.30 pm hahaha! We're really having fun there! =) Thanks to Eugene and Chong for postponed our class xD

And have you ever wonder what we're doing when lecturers not in class? The answer:

Turning Video lab into a Dance Floor

The first dancing class started when Chris played a dance tune that makes everyone started dancing. Happened after web design class~

This one happened last week when we're so stress in finishing our video assignment. I'm not so sure waht started this, but I think at first Chen play a dance song, then Selvia asking everyone to dance, the the final blow is when Chris played a dancy song. And suddenly Video Lab become a dance floor!

Don't you just love my class? :)

And to all my classmates, don't kill me please xD

Busy Busy Busy

2008-07-10T19:15:00.004+08:00

Hwaaaaa!!! This week is such a busy week! Editing video, finishing web design, buying domain, finding good web hosting, etc etc.

For video I'm a bit worried because we're not even 50% finish yet. Luckily for my interview video turns out okay, not as disappointing as what I thought it would be.

Web design I finished the 8 pages already, uploaded it here. Please give me some comments about it! :) Just now I received reply from my lecturer, Joanne Ng, I'm so relieved that she liked my design. I still need to improve more on the content are though, hope will have not much problem with it later.

And I already buy a domain for my class, http://www.designerds.de! Now just need to find a good web hosting service. At first I want to just use free web hosting service, but from our discussion seems like we need more space, so I research and I found this website about top 10 web hosting. Not yet buy the web hosting, but so far I think I found some candidates already :) Anybody want to suggest other good web hosting?

I think I really like organizing something la, it's so fun to research and organize stuff. Maybe that sounds weird, but I really like it! :P Maybe that's also because I'm can be so kaypoh/kepo hahaha! I think if in future I do not become a designer, I'll probably be an event organizer. I really like taking care of stuff and see it turns out nicely because of my planning :) And for now I can't wait to see our future desig[NERD]s website!

Foul Mood

2008-07-06T01:32:00.004+08:00

Lately I keep having mood swing. Today must be one of the worst. I really really easily irritated by anything. Good thing I still can try not to be angry IN PUBLIC. Even though honestly inside my heart boils. I think today is the day where I swear the most. Yea, even though I didn't speak the words out, it's like a repeating words in my mind. I really hated when somebody try to make me like a stupid dumb bimbo girl that can't do anything by myself. Fine, OBVIOUSLY I can't drive in KL, I don't have any driving experience in big cities, I admit that my driving skills sucks much. But it doesn't mean that I'm a stupid girl just because of that, ok? I really don't know why you really insist that I can't do anything by myself. Do you really need to prove that you're far smarter than me? Do you really need to prove that I'm just a spoiled girl? That I always need anybody to help me to do anything?

I only mad about that one, other things I admit that's just because of my foul mood. I'm sorry to any of my classmates if my foul mood disturb you. I just easily feel irritated today. Somehow I turned into an emo kid who think that everyone just try to pick me. But at least I realized it and don't make it as a big deal. I don't scream and cry mindlessly saying that other people stupid and they're not better than me. I know and I understand that all my anger due to my foul mood. For the rest of the day, I try to not spoke so much. I know with my condition any of my word and the respondent's word can make me in even worse mood. But honestly I think should've deal with my mood better la. Usually it's quite easy for me to just ignore anything that can flame my anger. But seems like lately my patience become thinner and thinner.

Few days ago I talked with Brad and from there I think I already must admit that this term is not my best term. I must say that mostly my work sucks, but I know I deserve that. I think I didn't work hard enough. Because of this realization I promise myself that I'll do my best for web design and video, two last assignment this term. Wish me luck!

So, song of the day to lighten my mood:

PEACH - Otsuka Ai

LOL. OMG I can't believe that i choose this song.

Update: somehow I feel my mood become lighter after I rant here! =D

Dreamscape

2008-07-04T13:54:00.003+08:00

Get some weird dream last night, one of it involving one of my lecturer. No Hazmer, don't worry it's not you in that horrible dream hahaha. But even though the dream is quite weird and a bit scary, somehow I didn't feel scared at all. Like when in my dream somebody try to read me a Tarot card, it shows the Death card, but the fortune teller tell me actually it's not a sign of bad thing, more to something like rebirth, some old part of me will die but reborn into a new one. WOW. I got a tarot reading from my dream! LOL. But actually somehow before the fortune teller in my dream open the card I already know the card would be the death card.

About dreaming, I think I can half control my dream. Like one day I ever dream about a ghost that come out from a hole, somehow in my dream I can think that the ghost just go back inside the hole again, and it happens. In some dream where I've been asked to do something that supposedly to be a surprise, I manage to guess it before, and it happens exactly the same with what I guess. Afterall it's all only in our mind.

But not all dream I can control though, if I got a dream where something or somebody chase me, I'll really get panic and forget everything. In my mind there's just one word: RUN! Even though I don't even know what or who that chasing me. Until in one of my dream I get tired and surrender, just to find actually nobody is chasing me.

Okay, will talk about dreams again later, now I'll go watch movie with my classmates! =)

Gone emoness, gone!

2008-07-01T23:27:00.004+08:00

Finally I overcome my emoness, wohoo! Finally I got the answer that I keep asking to myself. When I finally got the answer, I realize how I can really blur and clueless about myself =_=;; A simple answer actually, but take almost the whole term for me to get the answer! Blur Tan! So I think this term really serves me right, I deserve all of this. Now I already awaken, and so here's the new Tan~! Sorry and thanks to all my friend who become the victim of my abuse and rant LOL.

So here's the song of the day!

Break Away - Kelly Clarkson

Oh yea, I also took some kind of astrological test here. I must say the result is quite... interesting ^^; Because the result actually is a very looooooooongggggg paragraph, so I'll just put some of the quote here :P

Rising Sign is in 12 Degrees Leo
You are very proud of yourself, sometimes quite vain even. When all around you are bedraggled and falling apart, you look like a million bucks! You are very idealistic but can also be quite stubborn. Physically, you are very impressive - - at your best you have a regal, charismatic demeanor and bearing. Try not to be such a showoff!

Somehow the imaginary of Tony Stark comes to mind when I read this.

Sun is in 18 Degrees Taurus.
Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things.

So people, don't make me angry! And maybe you can give me paper clay set for my birthday :P

Moon is in 20 Degrees Aquarius.
Very freedom-oriented, you must always be able to do what you wish, no matter what. You become stubborn and recalcitrant when others try to force you into a mold. You are a true democrat -- you are not a follower, but you enjoy being with those who are like-minded. You appreciate emotional self-control -- you practice it yourself and you look for it in others. You solve problems, including emotional ones, with your brains and intellect, not your feelings.

Must agree about the stubbornness~

Mercury is in 07 Degrees Gemini.
Your mind is active, quick and agile. You are very restless and you get bored easily. You are probably a good student because of your natural inquisitiveness. You also love to travel. Your learning tends to be superficial, though, because you have a relatively short attention span. Try to develop the mental discipline to finish what you start.

See? I'm a good student! My lecturers must have love me :P And yes, I love to travel, but I hate the progress to arrive in my travel destination =_=" Blame my land-sick, sea-sick, and air-sickness. I really wish somebody will just invent a teleport machine.

Mars is in 21 Degrees Aquarius.
Your ideas and opinions are usually inventive and original, but sometimes they are merely eccentric and offbeat. You are altruistic -- you will work hard for the attainment of group goals, as long as they meet your high standards. You tend to resent traditional authority figures because you think that your ideas are better thought out and more valuable than theirs. Very idealistic, you are a rebel WITH a cause!

Like what Chris ever said, rebel with a cause! :P She must be proud of me lol.

Saturn is in 01 Degrees Capricorn.
Very serious-minded and mature, you have the ability to take on responsibilities and to carry out important duties. You can also be trusted to be extremely practical and thrifty. A good organizer, you are the ideal one to be counted on to take a clearly defined project through to its logical conclusion. An achiever, you pride yourself on your ability to focus your attention totally on some worthy goal and then attain it.

Now I can't say no if anybody say that I'm a control freak...

N. Node is in 21 Degrees Pisces.
You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!

Now it's something I must be careful about... O_o
So people, what about you? :P

Woew, it's been a long time since I have this kind of looooooooong entry!
OK, so that's it! Must do my assignment now T.T

Malas Mentranslasi

2008-06-30T02:26:00.005+08:00

Gak tau deh kenapa, tapi hari ini rasanya pengen aja blogging pake bahasa Indonesia. Rasanya kangen aja nulis sesuatu pake bahasa Indonesia lagi.

Akhir-akhir ini aku beneran ngerasa aneh deh. Rasanya suasana hati gampang banget berubah. Kadang aku ngerasa kayak bukan aku. Mau curhat ke temen-temen juga bingung, aku sendri ga tau apa yang salah.

Ah, ya aku sekarang jadi ketagihan sama lagunya Five for Fighting, I just Love You.

Huhuhu jatuh cinta habis-habisan sama lagu ini nih sekarang.

Btw, Brad bilang kalo aku bakalan cocok kerja jadi maid di Tsundere Cafe.
Me: NOOOOOOOO!!! Saya tidak galak, ok! DDD:
Brad: Kamu kan seme
Me: Saya ga seme
Me: Saya juga bukan uke
Brad: Jadi? =.=
Me: Suke
Brad: =_=;;;

Somebody Sleep Worse Than Me

2008-06-27T07:21:00.003+08:00

I though I'm the worst sleeper. Actually not. Because Wahyu just beat me. I tried waking him up 3 times+1 time by Chris only he wake up. Alamak~!

1st try:
Me: Wahyuuuuu wake up~! *knock knock*
Wahyu: ....
Me: Wahyuuuuu!!!! *knock knock*
Wahyu: mmmmmmm..................
Me: *open the door* *shake shake* Wake up!!!
Wahyu: mmmmmm
then I gave up and asked Chris to wake him. But she failed also.
That keep repeating until the 4th time~
Alamak, next time must record Lona's voice just to wake him up la!

Oh yea, the whole class in Melaka now!
And Hazmer, no you won't got your cookie, because you put down my hands and feet at chen's blog! :P

Guess Who?

2008-06-25T19:28:00.003+08:00

Cookies to anybody who can answer correctly! :P

Emotion Management

2008-06-23T19:40:00.006+08:00

Lately it becomes harder for me to control my emotion. I feel so emo lately~ AAAAA~!!! I know why but I'm still in half denial stage =___= please let me emo-ing for a while peacefully~~!!!

The impact is quite bad though. Makes it hard for me to control my emotion. Now I read a story I cry, watch a movie I also cry, cannot do my assignment also cry, even talk to my friend I also can cry! Alamakjang~! Like today somebody quite piss me off, makes me really want to scream and swear at that person (involve many unwanted words and an erection from a finger). Good that I still have a little bit control left for me, so I just go out and just try to cool my anger. Really need to gain back my control T___T I think I'm a bit control freak la... =_=;;

Oh yeah, about the trip to Melaka, will post it next time. Need to edit my photography assignment first!

Go!

2008-06-19T17:46:00.001+08:00

Will go to Melaka (or Malacca or Malaka? @_@) with Chen tonight, will be back on saturday! :D

Moving On

2008-06-17T21:36:00.005+08:00

Somehow, when I need an honest opinion, I know I'll always be able to ask you. It amazed me on how you actually understand me more than I thought you do. I used to think of you as my younger brother, but now you've grown, while I still stuck here. I used to think I've already moving on, but as we talk, I realized that actually I'm still in the same position. Maybe I've face different sides of the road, but I'm still on the same spot. Like what you said, when experience beats the current situation, I'll held back and unconsciously repeating the same pattern as before. I've screwed the situation last year, and I foresee it'll happen again in near future if I do not change the way I think and how I will resolve the problem. Well, like what you said again, the problem is not about me. Actually all are only in my mind, I only need to beat my own thinking, my own prejudice about this. I need to break the wall and face the problem, not runaway like what I always do.

Someday, you have to move on. Faster, better.

I know, I know. Wish me luck.

However

2008-06-16T06:57:00.006+08:00

7.00 am now, I can't sleep even though I finished my wed already. There's only Brad in YM and MSN to torture =.= Been talking about Iron Man and other Marvel DC's hero. Weird to see how Tony Stark in comic really looks like Robert Dwney Jr. It's like he just jump out of the comic book!

Dunno how stumbled to GLAY's old song, HOWEVER (yes, all capital, dunno why those Japanese musician are so particular about capitalization =.=). Been in love with this song before, and I fall in love again now. Been listening to it for many times already. Actually I'm not GLAY's fan. Dunno why I just can't stand TERU's (yes, it's capital, baby!) voice in some of their song. Ok, GLAY fan please don't kill me, it's about personal taste. But I think TAKURO is awesome though.

So here's HOWEVER by GLAY :)

update: 8.30 am now and I still can't sleep!!! Goodness I really drank too much coffee!

Thank You

2008-06-16T04:56:00.002+08:00

Thank you for listening to me when I'm down.
Thank you for pushing me when I want to stop.
Thank you for being patient with me.
Thank you for all your support.
Thank you for believe in me.
Thank you for being such a good friend.
Thank you. You know who you are.

Worry

2008-06-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

Somehow I feel so worried. Dunno why. Usually even though I got a lot of assignment also I wont feel like this. Now I even trembled. I don't know lah, I really feel so worried. Worried worried worried worried worried worried worried worried worried worried worried worried until I think I must post something just to speak out my worry. I feel like I can hear my heart beat man~ Maybe because I drink too much coffee?

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Terrible Week

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Currently

Sudden Realization

Kafka On The Shore

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Tanyus

FML

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How To Be Dead

Sometimes

Cool Guys Don't Look At Explosions

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Adorableness and Hecticness

BTW...

What Happened

Laskar Pelangi

So It's Almost Holiday...

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I Watched The Watchmen

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Tan is Emo

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About Packing

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Best and Worst Movie of 2008

My New Year's Resolution

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Quick Post

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Yesterday and Today

5 Scenes in Comics That I Love

Career According to Birth?

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Please Help Me Hatch The Egg!

Top 5 Online Shopping Sites that I like

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Not As Cool As Me

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