Gone emoness, gone!

Finally I overcome my emoness, wohoo! Finally I got the answer that I keep asking to myself. When I finally got the answer, I realize how I can really blur and clueless about myself =_=;; A simple answer actually, but take almost the whole term for me to get the answer! Blur Tan! So I think this term really serves me right, I deserve all of this. Now I already awaken, and so here's the new Tan~! Sorry and thanks to all my friend who become the victim of my abuse and rant LOL.

So here's the song of the day!



Oh yea, I also took some kind of astrological test here. I must say the result is quite... interesting ^^; Because the result actually is a very looooooooongggggg paragraph, so I'll just put some of the quote here :P

Rising Sign is in 12 Degrees Leo
You are very proud of yourself, sometimes quite vain even. When all around you are bedraggled and falling apart, you look like a million bucks! You are very idealistic but can also be quite stubborn. Physically, you are very impressive - - at your best you have a regal, charismatic demeanor and bearing. Try not to be such a showoff!

Somehow the imaginary of Tony Stark comes to mind when I read this.

Sun is in 18 Degrees Taurus.
Affectionate, even-tempered and slow to anger -- when you do become emotionally upset, you are also slow to forgive and time must pass before your calm returns. You demand real results from any situation -- abstractions are very difficult for you to comprehend. Very artistic, your hands love to mold and shape things.

So people, don't make me angry! And maybe you can give me paper clay set for my birthday :P

Moon is in 20 Degrees Aquarius.
Very freedom-oriented, you must always be able to do what you wish, no matter what. You become stubborn and recalcitrant when others try to force you into a mold. You are a true democrat -- you are not a follower, but you enjoy being with those who are like-minded. You appreciate emotional self-control -- you practice it yourself and you look for it in others. You solve problems, including emotional ones, with your brains and intellect, not your feelings.

Must agree about the stubbornness~

Mercury is in 07 Degrees Gemini.
Your mind is active, quick and agile. You are very restless and you get bored easily. You are probably a good student because of your natural inquisitiveness. You also love to travel. Your learning tends to be superficial, though, because you have a relatively short attention span. Try to develop the mental discipline to finish what you start.

See? I'm a good student! My lecturers must have love me :P And yes, I love to travel, but I hate the progress to arrive in my travel destination =_=" Blame my land-sick, sea-sick, and air-sickness. I really wish somebody will just invent a teleport machine.

Mars is in 21 Degrees Aquarius.
Your ideas and opinions are usually inventive and original, but sometimes they are merely eccentric and offbeat. You are altruistic -- you will work hard for the attainment of group goals, as long as they meet your high standards. You tend to resent traditional authority figures because you think that your ideas are better thought out and more valuable than theirs. Very idealistic, you are a rebel WITH a cause!

Like what Chris ever said, rebel with a cause! :P She must be proud of me lol.

Saturn is in 01 Degrees Capricorn.
Very serious-minded and mature, you have the ability to take on responsibilities and to carry out important duties. You can also be trusted to be extremely practical and thrifty. A good organizer, you are the ideal one to be counted on to take a clearly defined project through to its logical conclusion. An achiever, you pride yourself on your ability to focus your attention totally on some worthy goal and then attain it.

Now I can't say no if anybody say that I'm a control freak...

N. Node is in 21 Degrees Pisces.
You seem to go out of your way to form relationships with those who are weak, sick, injured, addicted or troubled in some way or other. At your best you can indeed provide the relief that others need. But at times you can be victimized by those who would prey on your good nature and take advantage of you. This can lead to all sorts of negative situations -- make sure that those you assist are truly worthy of your time, energy and commitment. A little enlightened self-protectiveness on your part can make your life work much, much smoother!

Now it's something I must be careful about... O_o
So people, what about you? :P

Woew, it's been a long time since I have this kind of looooooooong entry!
OK, so that's it! Must do my assignment now T.T

INTJ

In one of the forums that I joined, there's a topic about quiz. One of the forum member suggest a quiz from MyPersonality.info. I'm quite interested with other member's result, so I take mine also :) So... here's my result!

Can't believe I'm a strategist while I hate strategy games

Preferences

Introverted
iNtuition
Thinking
Judging

Temperament
NT (Intellectual)

INTJ Population
Total: 1.5%
Male: 2.5%
Female: 0.5%

Wow, only 0.5% female from 1.5% total got the result. I'm one of the rare human species LOL.
So... What the heck INTJ is?

"...approach reality as they would a giant chess board, always seeking strategies that have a high payoff, and always devising contingency plans in case of error or adversity."

- The Portrait of the Mastermind Rational (iNTj) (Keirsey)

Honestly I don't really understand the first explanation, but I think it's about INTJ people being a strategist individual?

"...observer, values solitude, perfectionist, detached, private... does not talk about feelings, hard to impress, analytical, likes esoteric things..."

- Jung Type Descriptions (INTJ) (similarminds.com)

I really don't think I'm perfectionist, but other than that most of those are true. Especially the esoteric ones LOL, Steven ever told me that most of the time I liked something that most people not interested in. Detached, a skill and knowledge that I learned from Cindy. I always know that nothing last forever, and attachment is not a good thing to solve this. One day we must let go.

"To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence. This self-confidence, sometimes mistaken for simple arrogance by the less decisive, is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age. When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how."

- INTJ Profile (TypeLogic)

Not sure about this one, but I hope people not look at me as an arrogant bitch.

"At work, INTJs use their conceptual strengths to analyze situations and then develop models to understand and anticipate through relentlessly to reach their goals. They will continue on with their plans, even in the face of adversity and data that might suggest to other more practical types that their goals are no longer feasible. By nature, INTJs are independent individualists."

- INTJ - The Free-Thinker (Lifexplore)

Independent, yes. I'm proud being an independent girl that won't cling to other people all the time for help. And the one with still going with the plan, it's so me LOL. Even though my plan start to go wrong I'll still keep going. Hantam saja rather than repeat all over again. Sometimes I think I need to be more flexible though.

"INTJs are natural leaders, although they usually choose to remain in the background until they see a real need to take over the lead. When they are in leadership roles, they are quite effective, because they are able to objectively see the reality of a situation, and are adaptable enough to change things which aren't working well. They are the supreme strategists - always scanning available ideas and concepts and weighing them against their current strategy, to plan for every conceivable contingency. "

- Portrait of an INTJ (The Personality Page)

Natural leader? O___o I don't think so. The last time I become a leader in our Installation Project, I feel like my team member either feel scared or intimidated by me =.= It's like they scream inside "It's Tanyus!!! Don't you dare to piss her off! Just do your work like what she said!"
Am I that scary as a leader? =______=
In conclusion, lesson no.1 for you: Don't you ever makes me as a leader unless you have no other choice.