The Beginning

I was chatting with Wendy, complaining about my lack a motivation in doing my studies. Then he give me a very good advice:

Always remember the feeling when you started something.
Human being human, the greatest feeling is when they started something new.

Now I look at my college days with the feeling of a little girl who just discovered crayons :)

Thus the song of the day:

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
It's all right

I feel so grateful to have friends that always support and encourage me T___T
I'm sorry that lately I complained a lot you guys T____T
I'm sorry for being such a brat T____T
Thanks for your patience T_____T
Thanks for not-so-spoiling me T_____T
Thanks for always keep me sane T____T
Thanks for being my friends for the longest time T______T
I love you guys! :)

Relieved

My blog is like... in semi-coma state, I know. I really have no mood to do anything lately. FPS stressed me so much since I left behind my schedule for too long. The reason is I don't even have faith in my concept. I don't know why, but I keep seeing flaws in it and that's not the kind of flaws that I just can brush it off. So I change my concept and I FEEL GOOD about it. Finally something I have faith in. Somehow I just believe that this idea might work and I have clear picture in my mind on how I want to do it. Even though it's kind of rush and I have little working time, I like it and I don't feel tortured in doing it.

I've just got back from college, having some critic session with Sweii and some chat with her about further study. Thanks to her now I got clearer info about it. I think I'm really the person who needs to ask and talk about something before I can really sure about it. I don't know why, after that critic session and chat I feel sooooo soooo good. Like some weight in my chest just gone away~ I feel good LOL XD

To sum this post, I just wanted to say that I'm so happy today~! X)

Further Study?

When I go back to my hometown for CNY, my mom suddenly ask me if I want to further my study. To be honest, I really really want to. The only thing that makes me hesitate is the money my parents need to spend for me if I continue my study. Among all my siblings, my parents spend the most money on my education. Both of my sisters get their degree in Indonesia, which is much cheaper that my study here. Plus, both of them finished sooner then other students so they don't burden my parents too much. I feel guilty for making my parents spend so much money for me. My mom ask me to think about it and asks people around me if I need to further my study. I've asked and most people said ofcourse it'll be good, even the experience alone is worthed, and if I can, why not?

I've just called my mom to tell her about it and she said that she'll support me. She ask me to where I want continue my study which I can't decide yet. For the past 3 days I've been researching about where to studies, etc. At first I'm interested in Birmingham City University because some people that I know wanted to continue their study there. But after I've done some research, now I'm more interested in Northrumbia University and University of Sunderland because they have Interactive and Multimedia design courses which I'm interested in. Actually my mom asked me (if possible) to go to place where I've got friend with me, so she won't be too worried about me being so far from my family. But I think eventually I'll manage though. I'm still undecided, but I hope I will make a good decision.

Btw, it's a bit random and out of topic but I want to post this funny comic xD

Comic from XKCD