The Horror of Packing/Moving/Whatever

I JUST REALIZED I HAVE TONS OF JUNK IN MY ROOM. Shit.
Okay, so here's the story.
Tomorrow I gonna back to Indonesia for awhile to settle few things, and since I will graduate soon and move from here I plan to take half my stuff back first.
And the horror begin.
I have lots of junk/stuff/treasure/whatever and I don't know what I should do to them.
They consist of:
- Art materials from foundation years
- Tons of figure drawing works
- Tons of workbooks
- Bottles with questionable substances of perfumes, sprays, medicine, etc.
- Stack of color papers
- Boxes of magazines
- Bags (I really don't realized that I possessed more than 5 bags WTH)
- SHOES (I have more than 20 and don't know how I carry them all T____T)
- CDs (I think I need to sell them)
- Books
- Misc junk

Shit. I really really freaked out now. Follow my twitter if you don't believe me.

Tanyus

Presentation FAIL.
*sigh* T_T

FML

Since 2 days ago I broke my bedroom's doorknob, but I'm too busy to change it so I just let it be. For safety I always put my bedroom key outside, but today when I collect my laundry, I FORGOT about it. Therefore I locked outside my room without key =.=

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Ok, I actually planned to write long ass entry about today's incident, but after this blog writing activity inevitably interrupted I suddenly lost the mood D:
So I'll just sums up everything:
1. Wounded my thumb because of the door incident, and it HURTS SO MUCH.
2. The door ended up looking so ugly =.=

3. I love my bookmark design so much =D Will sell it for graduation campaign bazaar :)
4. Steven's reaction when I said I liked Anton Yelchin in Star Trek and Terminator Salvation
Translation:
"But Nyuuus Anton Yelchin is a little boy"
"how come?"
"HOW COME?"

LOLOLOLOL xD He's 20 ok, old enough for me xD


ok, that's pretty much sums up what I wanted to say D:
And song of the day, Starlight by Muse

The Beginning

I was chatting with Wendy, complaining about my lack a motivation in doing my studies. Then he give me a very good advice:

Always remember the feeling when you started something.
Human being human, the greatest feeling is when they started something new.

Now I look at my college days with the feeling of a little girl who just discovered crayons :)

Thus the song of the day:

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it's been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it's all right
It's all right

I feel so grateful to have friends that always support and encourage me T___T
I'm sorry that lately I complained a lot you guys T____T
I'm sorry for being such a brat T____T
Thanks for your patience T_____T
Thanks for not-so-spoiling me T_____T
Thanks for always keep me sane T____T
Thanks for being my friends for the longest time T______T
I love you guys! :)

Relieved

My blog is like... in semi-coma state, I know. I really have no mood to do anything lately. FPS stressed me so much since I left behind my schedule for too long. The reason is I don't even have faith in my concept. I don't know why, but I keep seeing flaws in it and that's not the kind of flaws that I just can brush it off. So I change my concept and I FEEL GOOD about it. Finally something I have faith in. Somehow I just believe that this idea might work and I have clear picture in my mind on how I want to do it. Even though it's kind of rush and I have little working time, I like it and I don't feel tortured in doing it.

I've just got back from college, having some critic session with Sweii and some chat with her about further study. Thanks to her now I got clearer info about it. I think I'm really the person who needs to ask and talk about something before I can really sure about it. I don't know why, after that critic session and chat I feel sooooo soooo good. Like some weight in my chest just gone away~ I feel good LOL XD

To sum this post, I just wanted to say that I'm so happy today~! X)

Adorableness and Hecticness

See my previous blog entry? The one I gush about how hot is Zachary Quinto? FORGET THAT. Because now I'm in looooveeeeee with Anton Yelchin. RIGHT, Pavel Chekov from Star Trek. The adorable russian navigator
Ok, before I continue writing this, please bear in mind, I'm in my SUPER FANGIRL mode.
I thought that I've already passed the era where I adore super cute uke-type guy. But then I see this:
Because if that picture I act like this (but in different terms of madness) :

IS THAT THE SAME BOY THAT I SAW IN STAR TREK??? SINCE WHEN HE BECOME THAT GOOD LOOKING? asdWEFWRFWFCwAESXQXDX1~!@~@E#W@#$@$

It also not helping that I've found this video of him being adorable and vulnerable from ontd_startrek (I recommend this community if you guys want to find crazy fangirls make fun of star trek actors LOL)

SHITE. I'm sold T.T He's just so freaking adorable. It's also not helping that he's being all smart and funny T.T I think this is the first time I like an actor whose around my age LOL. Usually guys that I like are just too old~! So I got excuse to like him, he's around my age~! I'm not guilty~! Now I just can't wait for his next movie, Terminator Salvation where he played teenager Kyle Reese.


Oh, well~ XD Ok, time to turn off my super fangirl mode. Let's talk about college life now T.T
This term we continue doing our FPS, graduation campaign, and Industry practice. Somehow for graduation campaign I become treasurer. Actually almost all MM students become the board member. Chen as the president, Wahyu as Art director, Diana as PR, Chris as Marketing assistant, Sel and representatives of MM. So this term we're as busy as ant workers T.T I hope we all can pass this term and graduate together =)

Ok, gtg now. Having meeting with classmates for graduation campaign idea~

So It's Almost Holiday...

Yep! It's almost holiday~! After we pass this week then there's nothing can stop me from hibernating~! Oh wait, there's FPS =_=

Speaking of FPS, just now Sweii show us I Love Dogs project that been done by one of our senior. I'm so interested with the motion tracking and audio sensor (I don't know what the correct name of the thing is, so Ah Bonk, if you read this please tell me~!) that he did for the project. I'm thinking about implementing those things to my FPS too, but then when I tried the motion tracking script, I suddenly become blind X_X There's a looooooooottttt of things that I've never know/learn before. So I'm thinking about buying the AS3 cook book when I go back to Indonesia since I'm so broke right now T___T

Somehow this term my interest in AS3 increased greatly. I wanna know more about it, how to implement it with PHP, how to do interactive installation, etc. But to be honest, I don't want people know me as a programmer who can design. I prefer to be known as a designer who can program. Well, it's still a long way for me to learn AS3 anyway. Wish me luck~! =D

Things I've Learned Lately

I slowly lost my passion in design. When I look back at my old sketch book and my new one, I can feel how I slowly lost it. Design is not something I really enjoy anymore. Design is something that I must do, just to finish and done with it. It's just like a routine. I feel so sad when I realized it, because designing used to be my dream job, it used to be something that I really enjoy and love. Now, I can't even have any confidence in it. I started asking myself if it's really what I want. I'm so jealous of my friends who really know what they want to do. I don't know. I really don't know which direction I'm going. I just feel that I don't mind doing the work, but that's not my passion. Not something that I really really love.

After I attend KL Design Week, it feels even more clearer. I feel quite inspired, but I also feel extremely jealous with the designers that really in love with what they do. I want to get back my passion. That's the reason why I decided to continue my study. I think if I directly work after I graduated, I'll just ended up as a machine without any interest in my work. I think I need more time to learn and gain back my passion. Pray for me~!

Oh, I Feel So Drunk

These few days I don't get any chance to sleep properly. So now I feel like a drunkard. You know, your body feels like jelly, your head feels like swimming, and the world around you feel so surreal. I've been trying to rouse my motivation by reading lots of design blogs and books. I think it works, but I still need more time since with schedule like now I can't really think properly. Like now. Do you guys even understand what I said? @_@ Please bear with me, it's 4.18 am now.

As much as I like the subject for this term, I think the group discussion is a bit too much. It also super frustrating to discuss though MSN because of he choice of word that we use, so we must meet at college. We have lot's of different opinions, but fortunately we get through that already. Although one of my group in one certain subject that I have no interest in is a bit weird. Pink and white for a name like Sinful Indulgence? WTH. Luckily they change it though. Oh yea, a note for myself, try to speak more gently in discussion Tan! Somehow I feel sometimes some people feel offended when I disagree with their opinion. Must be more subtle. Stupid Tan.

Yesterday (oh hey, it's already Friday! so actually it's the day before yesterday!) we have BBQ with Kenny and Hong in Dee's house. Fantastic food, but a bit too much lamb. Love the salad. Chris is a great piano player. Kenny coming to Dee's house riding bike. WOW. And Mrs.Kok is really pretty. We also forget to eat our watermelon. Plan to leave it in front of MM Dept door and put message "To: Kenny!". Somehow I even think to put it inside a baby crib.

WTH I'm talking about. Sorry, just like the title, I feel so drunk.

So Unmotivated

I don't know what's wrong with me, but seems like every term 2 I will lose my motivation in doing my assignment. Seriously, when I tell myself to do my assignment, the first word that come to me is "UGH!". I don't know what happened, I really really feels sooooooo unmotivated and moody. I also feel that everything is boring. One side of me feel so worried because I slack so much this term, while the other one don't care about anything because it feels like a torture to start working on my assignment. Somebody help me!!!!!!

Rude Person and First Week TOA

I was sleeping and dunno how in my dreams there's a very rude guy that makes me so angry until I really shout "EXCUSE ME!!! MIND YOUR MANNERS!" in reality until I woke up =.=!
I hate rude person. I really can't stand somebody who treat other people like shit. Grrr!

Btw, we started new term in TOA since 5 January. Finally I choose Advanced Web Design and Game Art and Planning for my elective subject. Actually I regret this decision after Sweii asked me if I've been given chance what skill I want to take. I answer Motion Graphic and Flash. Stupid me and my indecisive brain :(. But I think advanced web design will also give me lot's of new experience.

Btw, to my first week summary in TOA for this term. Firstly I can't believe now I'm in my 3rd year 2nd term. Wow, time sure move fast. In monday we got Final Project Studio with Sweii. As the name suggested, this term we start to do our Final Project. I'm so excited with this subject, hope I can execute my idea well.

Tuesday actually we got Game Art and Planning with Jordan, but we change the class to Friday. I think class is my favorite class this term, I'm so excited with our game plan and we also got to play in game room LOL. Yesterday our class play Wii together, it's such a super fun game. At first we play the standard Wii sports with Team Indonesia (consist of me and Wahyu) vs Team Malaysia (the rest of the class) and Team Indonesia win 3-0 woots! XD After that we play Wario for a while. Wario is such a funny game, it reminds me of Bishi Bashi Special. Jordan said actually he want to show more games to us, but because of the time limits he'll only show more games in our next class. Oooh, I love this class.

Wednesday we got Portfolio Presentation with Wai Khong. In this class our project is to sell ourself to agencies so they'll hire us. Actually I really like my idea, but Wai Khong said he already saw similar idea from my senior. Call me perasan or arrogant but after see senior's work I think I can do better than that and my idea is not similar. But I'll think of something else first to make my idea more solid.

Thursday is... the class that I think will be the most boring class in this term, Business and Client Management. No comment so far, since I don't even know and understand yet what's our project is.

The last one is Advanced Web Design, we need to create online capaign for Solar Energy awareness. I'm glad that I'm in the same group with Chen and Dee. I'm quite excited too with this class, because we got interesting topics to do.

Overall, judging from the schedule my lecturers give I think my class won't get enough sleep again this term (like we ever got enough =.=). The good thing is we got many interesting projects and group work, so maybe it won't be so bad.

p.s I plan to buy a handheld console, but still undecided which console I'll buy. Nintendo DS or PSP?

Frustated Post

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *bites blanket* shite shite shite! I HATE YOU ADM!!!!!! T_______T

MM068-1's BBQ Party in Port Dickson!

Well, as I mentioned many many times already, our class was having a trip to PD for 2 day and 1 night. Yes, in midterm, when our assignment ready to kill us. Quoted from my YM conversation:

lunatic_rave: where is PD? sounds far
tanyus.indrayani: yea, about 1-2 hours from Sunway. We go there for BBQ. All the way to PD for BBQ. In midterm, with loads of assignment piling in front of us.
lunatic_rave: you guys are nuts

Our trip started in the morning, me and Sel wake up at 6.30am, with Chen threatening us that she'll to do a marathon of calling if we didn't want to wake up. We go to KTM behind Metari at 8am, arrive at KL Sentral around 8.30 and then having breakfast there. I tried to find picture where chen using her sleeping bag as a bazooka (also claiming a trash bin in KL Sentral as her base), but no such luck. Too bad, it's our main entertaiment when we're waiting for Chris to pick us up.

Finally around 9am Chris come and we started our journey to PD!! Whee~ At first we're quite 'normal', but then as time goes by seems like our inner camwhore self started to appear! Behold the super camwhore pict! (OKla, to save your eyes from blindness I'll just put few here)

At first it's only started with Dee & Sel camwhoring

But me and Chen soon joining them!

While Chris seriously driving and Wahyu... umm seriously daydreaming? ^^;

And finally, finally, finally!!! We arrive at our chaley~

This first thing that we do after putting our stuff inside: Playing a fighting game!!! :D
Team Malaysia vs Team Indonesia!!
Result: 6 vs 2. Team Indonesia lose~ T.T

After the tiring screaming session, Wahyu and Chris started doing their 'research' about violence in game by playing God of War while Dee, Chen and Sel doing some 'photoshoot'

Biggest babies ever

And I don't want to feel left out so...

me as old wife, chen as suami gatal, dee as concubine HAHAHA!

A photo I won't proudly show to my children in future.
After that I happily sleep until 5pm hohoho~ While I sleep Cen, Dee and Sel preparing the kebab on satay sticks. So here's our foods! :D

chicken kebab with peppers, cherry tomatoes, and cheese! marinated by Dee

rolled lamb meat with asparagus and mushroom. marinated by Chen

and corns!! cut by me, with all strength that I have, since the corns are as hard as wood. Actually we also got chicken wings, but somehow nobody take the photo lol. Btw, all the food tasted amazing. Even the wood-hard corn tasted surprisingly sweet. Around 5pm+ we fo to the beach! Not the cleanest beach ever, but clean enough for us to play :)

Chen's Daniel "James Bond" Craig pose

Chris relaxing, our photographer fot the jump session :D

The only one non-blur picture of Wahyu on the beach!

The attempt to drown me =_=" from our drown each other jokesJump seesion!

Then we go back to chaley to take our BBQ stuff, and the BBQ begin!!

Nice sunset~

Guess who?

The BBQ!
Our lemon girlPosing in front of our BBQ~
Surprise Bday cake for Chris!Dee & Bday girl
Attempt to squeeze 6 of us in 1 frame
The pretty cat that we meet in PD

Wahh actually there's many more to tell, but this entry already too long! Maybe I'll update the second part later :P

Stay Tune

Our class will go to Port Dickson tomorrow for BBQ! We'll back on Friday. So stay tune for the trip report! 8D

First Week in TOA

Dang... I can't believe that I'm in my 3rd year now!!!!!!! *faint* Okay, so dunno why I'm so lazy to start my new term, maybe because the day before I got sooo tired because I need to clean our entire place in Mentari. Me and sel throw water to the floor and play with water! xD It's fun, but super tiring man. And our neighbor really should stop throw their rubbish in front of our house, because I really think about installing a security camera to catch the culprit!

Okay okay back to topic. So the first day is Motion Graphic with Joanne Kok. It's nice to be teach by her again, and motion graphic seems fun. Even though I don't really understand about how I need to use Adobe EA yet. Btw, our first assignment is... typography in motion! Dang! again... Honestly I'm not so good in typography, so this assignment worries me.

The second day is my worst nightmare, Le Design Method 3! I'm quite traumatize by Design Method 2 so I'm worried about DM3. Hope I can do it better than 2 previous term D: Sweii become our lecturer again, with Sook Chiung as tutor.

Third day is 3D, where we meet Kenny again :D 3D is quite fun, so far mo troubles with it. Oh yea, our class combined with our seniors!!! Dang dang doeng now. I've already get used to our small class, so when 3D glass got lots of people (more than 10 is lots to me :P) I feel so weird about it. After 3D we got branding with Vincent. All I can say that he still the same as last term LOL.

Then finally the fourth day, meet again with Digital Media, only now we're in advanced class already :) Hazmer still teach us... for 3 weeks only. Actually I'm quite dissapointed that he won't teach us this term :( Why can't you wait for another term, Hazmer???? Class is fun, so far. Not yet touch the programming, that's why I can say that :P

Btw, yesterday we buka puasa with Wahyu and Hazmer. As usual, we eat in Sushi Zanmai. I really think we must find a new dinner location... We talked about many many nonsense there, from Hazmer's orang asli picture to greetings ala Malaysia (guess how? stick your tongue, raise both your thumb and wide open your eyes LOL). After that we go to starbucks to play a music game. Very fun and interesting game, and after that I'm thinking about buying a DS lite too. Hazmer can apply as sales promoter of nintendo now.

Life in TOA

We're having a breakfast (actually lunch) date this morning with our lecturer, Yenny. It's really nice to chat with her again, she's such a nice and fun lecturer! :) Hope we will having more dates with her. After the date we go to gallery and messing around with the guestbook there :P

Damages caused by desig[NERD]s + Chong

We really really random, drawing characters and write nonsense stuff. It's really fun how we ended up fighting for space hahaha! And we also convinced our lecturer, Chong to draw his character there, the little devil (not the fallen devil, that's chen's). Because of the activity, our class postponed until 1.30 pm hahaha! We're really having fun there! =) Thanks to Eugene and Chong for postponed our class xD

And have you ever wonder what we're doing when lecturers not in class? The answer:

Turning Video lab into a Dance Floor

The first dancing class started when Chris played a dance tune that makes everyone started dancing. Happened after web design class~

This one happened last week when we're so stress in finishing our video assignment. I'm not so sure waht started this, but I think at first Chen play a dance song, then Selvia asking everyone to dance, the the final blow is when Chris played a dancy song. And suddenly Video Lab become a dance floor!

Don't you just love my class? :)

And to all my classmates, don't kill me please xD

Busy Busy Busy

Hwaaaaa!!! This week is such a busy week! Editing video, finishing web design, buying domain, finding good web hosting, etc etc.

For video I'm a bit worried because we're not even 50% finish yet. Luckily for my interview video turns out okay, not as disappointing as what I thought it would be.

Web design I finished the 8 pages already, uploaded it here. Please give me some comments about it! :) Just now I received reply from my lecturer, Joanne Ng, I'm so relieved that she liked my design. I still need to improve more on the content are though, hope will have not much problem with it later.

And I already buy a domain for my class, http://www.designerds.de! Now just need to find a good web hosting service. At first I want to just use free web hosting service, but from our discussion seems like we need more space, so I research and I found this website about top 10 web hosting. Not yet buy the web hosting, but so far I think I found some candidates already :) Anybody want to suggest other good web hosting?

I think I really like organizing something la, it's so fun to research and organize stuff. Maybe that sounds weird, but I really like it! :P Maybe that's also because I'm can be so kaypoh/kepo hahaha! I think if in future I do not become a designer, I'll probably be an event organizer. I really like taking care of stuff and see it turns out nicely because of my planning :) And for now I can't wait to see our future desig[NERD]s website!

Somebody Sleep Worse Than Me

I though I'm the worst sleeper. Actually not. Because Wahyu just beat me. I tried waking him up 3 times+1 time by Chris only he wake up. Alamak~!

1st try:
Me: Wahyuuuuu wake up~! *knock knock*
Wahyu: ....
Me: Wahyuuuuu!!!! *knock knock*
Wahyu: mmmmmmm..................
Me: *open the door* *shake shake* Wake up!!!
Wahyu: mmmmmm
then I gave up and asked Chris to wake him. But she failed also.
That keep repeating until the 4th time~
Alamak, next time must record Lona's voice just to wake him up la!

Oh yea, the whole class in Melaka now!
And Hazmer, no you won't got your cookie, because you put down my hands and feet at chen's blog! :P

Guess Who?

Cookies to anybody who can answer correctly! :P

Thank You

Thank you for listening to me when I'm down.
Thank you for pushing me when I want to stop.
Thank you for being patient with me.
Thank you for all your support.
Thank you for believe in me.
Thank you for being such a good friend.
Thank you. You know who you are.